Language of a Lover

wait

2010-07-07T08:18:00.002+08:00

everybody seems to be waiting on something, somehow to happen. a sign from god perhaps, for them to take the right direction in life? i mean there are times when signs do occur, but at times, and i'm quoting from the movie Evan Almighty, when you pray for patience, god doesn't give you patience, he gives you an opportunity to be patient, and thus it would be the same for signs as well don't you think?

sometimes you just got to open your eyes and maybe what you were searching for is right there in front of you, waiting for you to accept it, and at other times just take the risk and go by that. it might be the best decision you have ever taken.

at times, the leap of faith is the only step forward.

one man to another, if you don't move forward, you're only moving backwards.

chapter 1 - misery

2010-04-17T02:09:00.005+08:00

2 years before.

Danielle opened her eyes. Her thoughts were always in a flurry in the mornings; the spinning blades of the ceiling fan bolted above her didn't help much either. She closed her eyes again, her thoughts focused on him this time. Her fingers crept towards his side on the bed, trying to get a feel of him. She knew better though, he wasn't going to be there; he never was.

She then rested her fingers on her eyes, trying to adjust her eyes to the sunlight that was about to hit them. The duvet that kept her warm during the last winter were still on the bed, unwashed and unkempt. She never really had time to clean up after herself really, as he was constantly on her mind. It was as if he was a virus of sorts, eating away into her thoughts, killing the good memories they shared together and replacing them with sorrowful entries that would often make her weep.

She managed to pull herself to the closet. As she yanked the door open, she noticed a pale figure staring back at her. It had a pale and almost anemic skin with rings around its eyes that could only sum up that it had a really poor sleep, mostly due to the fact that it had been crying itself to sleep. Danielle began to comb her hair, refusing to believe that it was in fact her own reflection that she was staring at. It was a boost of confidence, to her at least, that she wasn't going to be a girl trapped in her own feelings, but a girl, unlike others, that is going to accept the fate that she had chosen.

She removed her sleeping robe, put her hands on her waist and realized that her feelings for him had even taken a toll on her health, as she was few stones lighter than she was when she first laid her eyes on him. She paced herself towards the shower, turned it on, and stepped inside. The bath was exactly what she needed. To her, it felt as it the sudden chill of the rushing water cleared all her insecurities and her doubts.

She stepped out of the shower, and looked at herself at the bathroom mirror.

"You're back," she whispered, as she placed her hand on the countertop

"How'd you know it was me?" he replied, resting his back on the bathroom door.

She turned her head, and stared at him. He looked a lot different than usual, but his gaze at her seemed familiar and comfortable.

"Your eyes give you away."

"So does your lips, my love."

She ran towards him, her thoughts provoked by his return. She leaped on to him, and wrapped her legs around his unfamiliar waist, and kissed him. He held her close to his chest, and as he kissed her neck, whispered into her ears,

"I love you".

Her heart thumped the same way it did back when she first fell in love with him. Danielle knew that no other man could make her feel the way she did every time he returned. It was like falling in love all over again, and it felt amazing.

prologue to misery

2010-04-17T01:47:00.000+08:00

She stood there motionless; her eyes began to tear. She couldn't help herself, there was nothing she could do that could have saved her from what was to come. He was leaving, and this time, she knew that it would be the last time she would ever lay her eyes on him.

"Dont go", she whispered, "Please, just don't".

He kept on walking; each step shredding every bit of memory they once shared. She remained static, hoping he would turn around just once and look at her. She was willing to sacrifice everything just to go back to the time when everything seemed simple.

Please..

She watched him walk away slowly, like an ethereal figure into the darkness. Her instincts told her to run after him, but alas, her legs felt like it was bolted to the ground; numb and lifeless. She looked up at the dark sky and in silence, cursed her very existence. The sky, as if sympathetic to her, began to tear as well, and craftily washed away her tears.

How could it get any worse than this...

Her heart began to race as the memories played in her head. She clenched her fist and knelt on the ground, begging for the pain to stop. She then drew her fist to her chest, pounding it furiously. The sudden movement drew all her energy away in an instant. It was useless now, her arms couldn't stop her forehead from resting on the ground.

Her eyes still open, she used every ounce of energy she had to search for any glimpse of him on Misery Avenue, but he was long gone, and so was the little drawing they scribbled together on the curb when they first met on the same street a year ago. She closed her eyes.

Rest in Peace, Danielle Stevens.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

faith.

2010-01-07T08:04:00.000+08:00

Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

Have faith in me.

Hope/Signs.

2009-05-04T19:12:00.001+08:00

"Hope dangles on a thread,
Like slow spinning redemption,
Winding in, and winding out,
The shine of it, had caught my eye"

the one and only you

2009-05-04T02:36:00.002+08:00

Her eyes, her beautiful eyes, that seem to calm the mightiest storm; the very same eyes that seem to see through the depths of my soul.

Her lips, the lips with seems to perfectly complete her beauty; the adorning moment everytime I notice her pressing them together and biting her lower lip; the very same lips that I would have given anything to have it brush against mine.

Her hair, of which I used to kiss the essence of its growth; the top of her head; the enticing smell her natural scent; the way her hair is clipped to the edge of her forehead ever so perfectly and the way her hair seemingly crowns her beauty.

Her eyelashes, the way it curls up top naturally.

Her scent; the perfume of which fills my senses.

Her ears; the way they parade her earrings; that particularly large tainted gold earrings that she wears often that seemed to balance her personality.

Her arms; that seems small, but packs an enormous punch.

Her little drawings; her funny little sketches; if I had the chance I'd frame them up for the way it makes me laugh everytime I see them.

Her little laughs over MSN; the way it melts me everytime I know I made her laugh.

Her stature; the way her body is perfectly proportioned, the way she stands straight.

Her height; that complements mine; allowing me to plant a kiss on her head unnoticed; the way I'm able to hug her and give her security; her hugs.

Her taste of music; the songs that seems to comfort me, even tho the songs weren't made for that reason.

Her alter-egoes; the way she acts them out, making them so believable but ludicrously funny.

Her sudden sense of direction; the way she unknowingly holds my hand to point me in the right direction.

Her skin; her complexion; the way she steals the spotlight unaware that all eyes are on her; and the way she complains that she hates the attention shes getting.

Her humbleness.

Her passion for children.

Her life.

Her soul.

Her dreams.

Her aspirations.

Her thoughts.

Her mind.

Her goals.

Her challenges.

Her shortcomings.

Her flaws.

Her beliefs.

Her taste in men.

Her taste in non-men.

Her randomness.

Her everything.

The story of a girl

2009-05-01T16:33:00.001+08:00

Everlasting beauty in a gown,
Oh, beauty that surrounds,
Would you turn my life around?
Or am I another grain on the ground.

Oh, love we're going down,
Down to a place where love will never be found,
To a place where no one makes a sound,
For they mourn for the girl who was passionately bound.

They say love can always be found,
And yet it'll never cost you a pound,
But how foolish were the people of that town,
As the girl who was bound was forever frowned upon.

The tulip and the bee

2009-05-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

The Tulip and the Bee,
Was that all it was ever going to be?
For it was a sin for the bee to hope in glee,
For the tulip to blossom beautifully.

The tulip, in its enchanting glory,
Never made the bee sorry,
As the bee would only have a single story,
For he knew his wait would end in agony.

In an attempt to alter destiny,
The bee tried to shape history,
But the tulip he cared for dearly,
Had given him no future beyond neutrality.

A Long Overdue Post, with an excerpt for You!

2009-04-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

Tears were all I had left. I had lost everything, I, sabotaged the best thing I had in my life. Everywhere I turned; there was at least one thing that reminded me of her presence. I couldn’t help it, I was falling, now deeper than ever. I had to pull myself together. I had to. If I don’t go after her, who will? I had to set things straight.

I got up from the bathroom floor, drenched and cold. My heart couldn’t possibly long for someone else more than it longed for her. My mind was in a daze. What could have possibly set her off? What made her storm out the way she did? What was it?

After a quick change of clothes, I got into the car, clocked the ignition, and drove off. There was no stoned left unturned in my effort of regaining her. I looked in every nook and corner, to no avail. I felt for the first time in my life, helpless. I wished that God would morph me into a canine, at least so I could find her through her scent.

I drove miles and miles, and at times, unintentionally passing the same street twice. I couldn’t help it. I was too much in a shock at her sudden shift off the norm.

I started fumbling around for my cell phone in the car. It was vibrating, but the lack of a ring tone made it hard for me locate it. Grabbing it, I answered the call with a swift key press.

“Hello?”

“Jay, is that you?”

“Cheryl? Where are you?”, I replied with a saddened tone, she never did call me by my name. Something was terribly amiss.

“I’m….I’m sorry. I really am. I know I owe you more than an apology, and definitely a reason; but I…I can’t bring myself to it. I wish you and I were back in the way we were, but I can’t stop fate. I’m sorry. I’m at…..”

And with that, I opened my eyes again. Everything was bright. The shrill ringing of the respirator beside and the sharp pain on my thigh brought me back to my senses. I was lying stationary on a bed, wrapped in white like a mummy, only with one small difference; I was alive. The pain was unbearable. Questions came like mushrooms after rain, popping out one by one. What was I doing here?

Iceman Render.

2008-10-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

Pauline and Vincents Photoshoot

2008-10-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Some of the pics from the photoshoot :)

I think I wanna take photography seriously. =P

Yearbook Yourself!

2008-09-20T22:46:00.004+08:00

Hey guys!

Wanted to share with you this AWESOME site! What it does is take a picture uploaded by you, and photomontages it into its library of old yearbook pictures. Super awesomeness! Examples of myself

Add a little photoshop, and voila! A gay pedophile!

Here is a picture, done in the same technique as above

www.yearbookyourself.com!

Angelas Photoshoot

2008-08-12T20:58:00.003+08:00

My Final 2 Renderings for Akitek Sivik

2008-07-23T23:12:00.001+08:00

My two last renderings that I submitted to the company. I don't really like it, but my boss said it was a masterpiece, you be the judge.

Compare Contrast.

2008-07-09T20:08:00.005+08:00

Ok, I need an opinion here. I was working on this project, called Stonor Grove, for about two weeks, doing up the perspectives and the design. After I had acquired a final picture, i printed it out, and my boss said he finds this picture more better, saying that my picture cant even compare nor come close to the picture below, and he says the guy who did the below picture took only 3 days. He also stated that I need to take classes from the guy who did the below work. He called my render a piece of lifeless junk. I need your opinion, tell me which is better? Remember, the above one is mine, and the below one is some guy from Lim Kok Wing's work.

3d-ness :)

2008-06-20T19:17:00.005+08:00

Hey guys! Hmm, I've not been in for a long long long time lol! Many people keep asking me to jump on the blogging bandwagon again, but seriously, I don't see the need to. Heh. I have no idea why, and no idea when it'll return, but yeah, here I am, and I don't have anything to rant about, lol!

So anyway, I'll just post some of the work I've been doing for my office. Oh wait, yeah, I'm doing my internship in Akitek Sivik *yes it's spelled akitek not architect*. I basically sit around the whole day doing 3d perspectives of buildings. The job is kinda interesting, but mundane at times, cant help that can we? :)

Well, yeah, here are 2 of my renderings, done entirely in 3ds Max and Sketchup. Be kind!! :)

A Rm500,00 full block bungalow in SS14 Kelana Jaya, with pool! :D

A winding staircased design for a railroad company in Pulau Indah, Klang. :)

Till then, adios!

Sorry.

2008-02-19T19:09:00.001+08:00

I'm so so sorry. Shouldn't have said anything.

Smile.

2008-02-17T20:12:00.002+08:00

ArgH! I'm on my bed, tired, weak, running nose, oh yes, the whole cocktail.

But somehow, through this thick forest of sickness, I had time to realise certain aspects of my life.

I'm addicted, and yes, I'm hooked.

For some reason even I can't figure out, I seem to go all out, to do things I wouldn't normally do even for myself, like driving all the way up to K.L, and drive the all the way back to Shah Alam, and asking for something that someone wanted in every single shop. I just wouldn't do it for myself, neighter for my parents for that matter.

The thing is, I'm addicted to her smile. Everytime I see her, be it for a moment, I would give anything to look into her eyes, just to see her smile, and theres where my lame jokes comes to play =P

Yeah, I know, I might be lame, but at least I'm trying. Deep down in me, I know theres a strong will, a will that would be sufficient to keep her happy, through thick or thin. I know I would keep her happy, if only she knew. Or maybe she does? =P

It's been long now, if I put into consideration the times I wish I had said something, it would be close to 5 years now. There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think of her/us and what could have been if I could only open my mouth. But I just can't! The very thought of losing her, and what I have, what we have together, as friends, just pulls my guts inside out.

Maybe I'm a chicken, maybe I'm the very same guy from the picture in the below post. All these just gives me a reality check, a yank, back down to earth.

Just give me a sign, just tell me. I wish you would.

And I would give you the best years of your life. I promise you.

Picking up the Pieces

2008-02-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

Whoa, I miss this page! It's been heck of a long time! I don't know, but somehow I just dropped out of the blogging bandwagon. Sue me :P

Well, it's time to come back, pick up the pieces, glue them together, and start over!

It's sorta good that I killed my previous audiences, now its gonna be much MUCH more personal!

Starting from today, I'm gonna try my best to keep this bloggie alive! My inspiration? Heh, need I say more? My ocassional rants on love and its shortcomings. Why do I, personally, love to be loved, but in the same time, bitch about it? It's so cynical. Okay, it sucks being me, wait, before you say it sucks being you too, let me give you two small details of my life

A = Have you met someone you truly cared about? I mean TRULY, put him/her way above anything that has ever existed? Only to realize that person uses you merely as a wall, a safety net, an extinguisher for the flame that had burned them. WHY? WHY AM I ALWAYS THE BROTHER? Why am I this guy?

I just can't take it. Why can't people see me for more than what I am? Yes I listen, well, I really do, but that kinda makes me a girl? So where does that leave me? A lesbian? Come on, I loved you once more than life itself, its time you gave me some cheese, or else I'll leave, as I already have one foot out the door.

B = Have you all heard the song What Hurts the Most by Rascall Flatts? Well, that preety much sums B up.

Look, all I'm saying is, I don't have looks, neighter do I have the money, flashy cars, or jewels for the matter. All I have is a few dollars in my wallet and feelings to spare, but I know that I would keep you happy, no matter what, no matter where and no matter how, I would. If you trusted me so far, trust me on this. Sounds kinda like the song I Have To Give by Backstreet Boys ehh? Well, love is that reality we all have to face. Maybe thats the higher purpose in life? Maybe thats the reason we're all here in this world.

Okay, enough about love, Handout 3 is out. Comic book design! I'm going with the Crimson Man without Fear, Daredevil! Heres a peek at my 1st design =)

P/s: The scale is a bit off, will attend to it later =) Btw, thats Daredevil on top of the unfinished Inti College in SS15. Ta'raa!

Cubism

2007-11-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

This series of pictures are on the below topic, the Sushi Cube.

First Looks

2007-11-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

Remember I posted a while back about my trip to Jonker Street?

This post is a glance at my latest model, The Sushi Cube.

Why cube? Well it actually transforms into one. More pics later =) This pic is from my hp btw. Very the unclear!

Solid-ly yours.

2007-11-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

This is another assignment we had, which was before the Skeletal Construction assignment below. This time, we had to spend around RM150 to build a solid structure, with arches and whatnot, with tiny blocks, almost like Lego. For binding them together, we used Sticky Tack, as cement. It was really tough, but worthwhile! =)

Photos courtesy of Toby Toh Yi Hong @ www.xanga.com/toby108 - which is never updated =.=

Ta'raa!

Skeletal-ly yours.

2007-11-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

Ahh, finally I can breathe again. Sem 3 is kinda over, now on study break. Exams and submissions are still on my calendar. DAMN!!

So anyway, a week ago we had a project named Skeletal Construction, whereby we were supposed to use a softwood named balsa, and construct a structure that is supposed to stand our body weight for 30 sec. Yes! Human weight! And we have a 50/50 percent chance that our model will break. Mind you, balsa wood is NOT cheap; RM2 per stick! Roughly our model came up to around RM50. Pictures below:-

Model - Completed.

We took around 2 weeks to complete that model, and the final days we stayed up in college till the library closed. Beat that nerds! Muahahaha!

Becca and Najat's group doing their presentation, before stepping on their hard work.

My teammates, Choong Wai and Daniel, speculating wheter to really risk life to stand on it.

Choong Wai explaining the model again, after I had already explained to the class. =.=

Minutes before Judgement Time.

A A3 board is placed on top of the model for our 'weight' to stand on.

Our 'weight' looks like hes jumping onto the model! He's not tho, I'd kill him if he did!

30 seconds, 29 seconds, 28 seconds....

And the 26th second, it broke! RM50 down the drain!

Haihz, sad case! ='(

Anyway, these are pics of my neices, and a birthday cake to my cousin Jacob. Happy Birthday bro! Tar'aa!

The Aftermath

2007-10-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys, havent been posting in a REALLY long time. Haven't had the time and was too occupied with my non-blogosphere related life. Well, actually, I don't have much to post anymore, as life is turned mundane!

Update on my life;

I've got my SLR already, its a Minolta DYNAX 500si Super. I haven't got it up and running yet, haven't had time to get the film and the uber expensive battery at RM30 a pop! Freaky!

Besides that, I miss my neice! I saw her last, crying on a Sunday, begging her parents not to leave Klang for Johor. ='(

Gahh, see, I've run out of topics.

Oh yeah, I've been planning to have a small excursion somewhere, for photographical intent. Nature would be the theme most probably. Suggestions still open.

Ciauz!

The Age of Photography!

2007-09-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

Heylow!

Guys! Remember my last post, the one with the long list of things I want? I just crossed one off!

MY NEW Nikon dSLR d40X!

Well, I am really really into photography, but my old Sony Cybershot camera just couldn't gimme the cutting edge, so I got myself the dSLR. It's really really awesome!

I got the camera on really really good deal!

D40x Kit
Lens Hood
Tripod
2GB SD memory
Nikon Bag
AF-S Nikkor DX VR 55-200mm 1.4-5.6G

Below are some pics that I took with the new camera. Expect better looking pics in my blog from now on =) ahahha!

1st pic must dedicate to the Ooi-minator. See the pose aso scary.

My current Studio Site Model, more pics and info on that later.

I wanted to submit this pic to Colgate Singapore =) wahahaha.

Continious mode shooting. Hmm, Adilah still calls Ooi. Hmmmmm.....

Joseph looking so angry, hes gonna turn green ANY given moment.

The new photography club leader, with his cheeky smile as if he's telling dirty jokes, as I look on in disgust XD

Tailo's shoe selling stall got broke-eded. Haha!

Photography bible, the Digital Camera Magazine. Its really good! Got my hands on some issues thanks to dai lo.

Gosh I still can't believe he still is thinking about perverted stuff.

I WANT MONEY!!

"I must be beautiful in every picture!" Ahahah Becca, don't kill me for putting this up!

Smile!

"Yeah, this is my sexy teeth grinding face I put on to get the ladies. They love me hot and angry!"

The Dai-lo's Sidekick; The Joo-minator a.k.a Mitten Man a.k.a Raaaaaaaaaaaaazorrrrrrrrrrrr!

Poser dog. Fox terrier FYI.

Poser friend. Chinese FYI.

Bellyman?(-men)

My pencilbox, same one from SAM.

Hot or not?

Flowers on my kitchen table.

18-55mm kit lens.

Nikon d40x manual. My current bible.

Doesn't this pic give a whole new meaning to MY FOOT?

Water, normal shutter speed.

Water, fast shutter speed.

I also did a photoshoot on my Nokia 6300. Note: You can verify it's mine thanks to the awesome scratches!

Malacca!

2007-09-12T14:01:00.000+08:00

I was fortunate enough to follow my Design Studio class to Malacca over the past weekend to attend a "holiday cum assignment" trip. Well, before I left KL to Malacca, I was having my doubts after seeing pictures of the hotel we were supposed to stay in, Hotel Puri. I mean, come on, it looked SO rundown, that I was afraid there'd be a 400 year old monster or something!

We left PJ at around 9.40, and it took us VERY VERY long to reach Malacca! Once we did, there was only one thing in our mind,

CHICKEN RICE BALLS!!

We tried the stuff at a restaurant near a junction in Jonker Street. The rice was excessively starchy, and the chilli was, well, not chilli! The drinks were overpriced and the chicken was salty! Didn't enjoy the 'balls' at all! So for you avid readers of my blog, and food junkies all over the world, I'm gonna let you out on a little secret about the chicken rice balls shop.

DO NOT GO TO THE SHOP AT THE JUNCTION OF JONKER STREET!

Instead, go for the shop near the Malacca Bridge, opposite the Stadhuys building. The shop, is at the end of Jonker Street. Gosh, my mouth is watering even thinking about that shop. The chicken, ahhhh, so tender! The 'balls', ahhhh, so round~ LOL. We had lunch here on our second day in Malacca.

Well after eating the lousy chicken rice balls, we headed to another shop that sells something very very VERY tasty, and sweet, and, above all, THICK. Okay, don't be perverted!

ITS THE AUTHENTIC GULA MELAKA CENDOL! So blady thick and creamy! The price wasn't that bad, around RM1.70 per bowl. The soup mee sold at this shop is preety tasty too! This shop is along Jonker Street, you can't miss it, just look for the long line q-ing at the shop.

After eating, we were TOTALLY full. So we went back to our hotel, to have a short nap. Actually Hotel Puri is a classy, and dignified hotel. It's really cosy and has the cultural thing going on. Very nice place. So anyway, we decided to sleep, and get up by 7p.m.

Some people might already know, I take time to sleep. I have to find a cosy spot, make sure my head is tilted in the right angle, arms bend in the right way. It's real hard! So anyway, I did find sleep, and I was having a nice, real nice sleep!

Suddenly, someone shouted,

IT'S 5.30!

I got up immeadietly, thought it was some lecturer screaming. I looked around, my roommates were still sleeping. I was puzzled.

Suddenly the voice spoke again,

IT'S 5.30 DUDES!

Toby's sleeping and talking! =.=

Another funny story, while we were resting on the bed, suddenly there was a phone call. Daniel was SO excited to pick it up, he jumped on the bed, causing the reciever to jump up and back down, ending the phone call before he even picked it up. =.="

These are some random shots of Jonker Street, sorry I couldn't take much pics, cuz my camera's battery died, and there was no room for pictures. Damn! I want a dSLR!!

Sushi Stand, not mine, I mean, my assignment-al sushi stand. More info on this later.

Guy who sells old pictures for a living. This goes to show that if you have a dSLR, you can still survive by selling pictures!

Jonker Walk lame ass-ed, cheap, welcome board.

OMG, A fish climbing a pole! Its strip dancing!!

Temple

Temple Guardian

Millions of decorative chains and body accessories

Le' Big Footy~

I do not wanna know how these mints taste like.

Holy BLUE Cow!

The Dutch are here! The Dutch are here! Well, to aid the Holland Days in Malacca parade, thats why they're here. These guys were amazing! I did snap a group pic with them, but it's with one of my mates. Will post them up soon enough.

I'm taking a picture of Hong Joo taking a picture of Ooi whos taking a picture of Toby who was taking a picture of me! LOL!

Before I end this post, this pic goes out to all the people who needs a laugh!

Ahahaha! Mr. David Ooi, over at his new blog, davidooi.blogspot.com. Sounds SO political la your blog name, sorta like jeffooi's blog. Anyhoo, someone is admiring you from behind in that pic ;)

More pics as soon as I get them

Ta'raa~

Knight in Shining Armour!

2007-09-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! Our armour was a freaking success!

Btw, Joseph, you still look gay!

Metal Shoe!

2007-09-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

My Design Studio assignment - Material Manipulation - Metal + Plastic.

By the way, its a shoe! More pics coming up!

Faster than the Speed of Sound.

2007-08-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

2 weeks of holidays are over. I am, hmm, whats the word, DEVASTATED! I mean like, this was the best 2 weeks of holidays that I had ever!

Why?

First things first, my sister gave birth to her "sophormore" child, lol, her second child, and yes, shes a beautiful baby girl, named Liora Rynn. I don't have photos of her, but you can check my friendster, and head over to my sisters blog, it goes by her name "Imelda"

Besides that, I went to numerous parties this two weeks; the first starting with Ashley's at Shah Alam, as he's leaving to Indonesia for higher education. One thing I'll never forget about Ashley is his CRUDE sense of humour. Everyone was told there was free booze at his place. Well this happened an hour before his party.

Ashley: Eh Hammie, its BYOB(Bring Your Own Booze) okay!
Ham: Ohhhh, okay okay, I'll go buy later.

(Hamilton goes to 7-11, buys a bottle of Heineken, and heads over to Ashley's place)

Ham: Eh Prakash, wheres your drink?
Prakash: No one brought drink!
Ham: Shit!

(Hamilton ended up the only sore friggin' loser downing a bottle of beer, alone.)

Then Dhalini comes up to me.

Dhalini: Something funny happened to me that day.
Ham/Me: What?
Dhal: I had this backache right, so my guy friend helped me massage me at the back. Suddenly he asked me, "Lets Go for Shower". So I hit him. Then he was like WHAT? He actually said, LETS GO FOR RUSH HOUR!

AHHAHAHA!!

Ok next party was Tongliang's BBQ. Two funny things happened.

1. I was driving near Tongliang's house looking for a parking, when I saw Alvin and his friend [B] walking. I sped my car, and braked probably about 2 inches from hitting both of them. Both jumped out in fear and was totally taken aback. The shit thing was, [B] wasn't Alvin's friend, it was HIS FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. We were eating happily with Tongliangs relatives when suddenly his mother screamed ROBBER and closed the front gate. In comes tall, dark, Julian Dev with his motorbike; Tongliang's mum thought he was a hoodlum! LOL!

I want...........

2007-08-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

Gosh! I have so many things I wanna buy for myself that sometimes I think I'm SO lavish! Here are some of those things.

1. Sennheiser PX-10

Great sound, unbelievable ergonomics, fantastic price; a must-have upgrade for your portable player. And yes, they fold into a nice box!

OR

AKG K 26 P
Killer small rock/rap/funk sealed portable headphone. Good sound, big bass, great seal!

2. 3.5" external hard disk drive.
360 gigs of SWEET SWEET memory.

3. Playstation 3.

What list of lavish desires would be complete without a gaming console? The PS3 is second only to the XBOX360, but I still prefer PS3. I remember when a bunch of us went to a Sony Style shop and was looking at a car race until we realised that it was only a game when "GAME OVER" came on screen. It was THAT realistic.

5. Canon EOS 350D

8.0 MP
3 fps with up to 14 image burst
E-TTL II flash system
DIGIC II
7-point AF
DPP RAW image processing software
Separate RAW/JPEG image recording
USB 2.0 Hi-speed/Video Out
Compatible with EF/EF-S lenses/EX Speedlite flashes
PictBridge compatible

Sum it up in one word?

SWEEET

6. Yamaha RBX 374

The RBX374 and has a neck made of quality maple with rosewood fingerboards. Two volume knobs and a master tone control the J-and split-style pickups. These basses are the perfect choice for value-minded players who demand top-of-the-line quality.

7. Calcomp Drawing Board V

Basically a board which lets you draw, and it connects via USB to your PC. Vevy vevy the cool!

8. A Car.

Any car would do actually, Myvi would be fine. Hahhaaa. BTW, that's a 1923 Ford T-BUCKET. SWEEEET RIDE.

9. A Foosball table

Thats a Nike table BTW.

10. I want a girlfriend! Ahahahhahaha!

Texas Round-Them-Up.

2007-08-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

For those of you who are clueless, Houston is the largest city in Texas and also it is the key point of the NASA space operations.

Toby: Hey I recorded my own ringtone.

Me + Daniel: Eh come lets listen!

Toby's phone(vaguely): Houston, we have a problem.

Me: Can't hear lar! What does it say?

Toby: It says "Houston, we have a problem".

Daniel: I don't get it, these people always say "Houston, we have a problem". Who is this Mr.Houston and what does he do?

Me + Toby: IT'S A CITY!

Cheers!

2007-08-02T18:01:00.001+08:00

Hey Ho, Johnny Hoe!

2007-08-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

Heyy guys! Its been a REAL long time since my last post. Well, I've lost my interest in blogging. I don't know why, and I don't know how. Anyway, my cousins are gone back to New Zealand (it's been 3 weeks now). Lol. The fun we had can't be expressed in words, honestly, it can't.

I've cut my hair. No more long long hair. Gosh I miss that hair!! Sadly I don't have pictures of it, even if I did, it's with my cousin.

Haih, life's been fast, but it all seems like I'm taking one step at a time.

Anyway, I've realised something. When someone says she goes not at all for looks, but for the heart as well, TRUST ME, it's definetly the looks =). Ask yourselves people, do you guys actually believe that looks ain't all that important? Ask yourselves.

Anyhoo, heres a song I saw a guitarist play on YouTube. Check it out ya, his voice abit funny tho =P.

MSN??

2007-07-11T18:56:00.000+08:00

Whoa, only one person online??

for you i will

2007-07-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Before you read the following, listen to either True - Ryan Cabrera, or For You I Will - Teddy Geiger, or even Iris - Goo Goo Dolls to add the 'jiwang/emo' effect.

If I had her, I would;

• give her one of your t-shirts to
sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she looks beautiful.

• look into her eyes when you talk to
her.

• let her mess with your hair.

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.

• look at her like she's the only girl
you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you're around your
friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell
her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms.

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she's
sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she's sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she's important.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell
her.

• and if you love her, love her like
you've never loved someone before.

The N Word!!

2007-07-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

I was with Premi in IDP today. She was waiting for her officer for God knows how long. There were two black men that were totally sucking every second out of the officer that Premi was supposed to see.

We kept waiting, and waiting, and yeah, you guessed it, waiting some more, when suddenly Premi's phone rang.

~Denyo, misa-la-camisa-negra~ was played as her ringtone.

Premi: Did you hear my ringtone?
Me: Yah, La-camisa-NIGGA.
Premi: What? NIGGA?

*she basically said it LOUD*

The two black gentlemen looked at us.

Hahahaa, lucky we didn't get murdered.

Sem 2/3 Subject Registration for Advanced Standing Students.

2007-07-02T13:13:00.001+08:00

Guys!

The letter issued to us by Taylors says that we have to register by 16th, and also that we have a 2 week time-lease to make our decisions on which subjects to take.

The thing is, I'm scared to register subjects because I'm scared that our timetable of each subject might clash. Students doing Sem 2 don't worry, your classes won't clash.

Anyhoo, I already registered 4 subjects, which are;

Building Construction 1
Building Services 1
Computer Aided Design
Design Studio 1

Register at http://tgen.taylors.edu.my/tcpjregister/

The fifth subject that I wanted to take was an elective, Furniture Design, but I can't seem to register it! Any ideas on what elective to take? I don't wanna do Maths!!

First of July!

2007-07-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's been a really really slow week. My cousins came down, we had tonnes of fun shopping for cellphones and pirated goods at Petaling Street. In total, we spent around RM250+ just on shoes! LOL! Its amazing how Petaling Street evolved into a craze among Malaysians and foreigners alike. I think if Petaling Street were to open their own brand and apparel, they could make goooood money!!

Anyhoo, I was over at Convent Klang's canteen day today, and I got one word for you.

HOT!!

The weather was SO unbearable! Not only that, the noise pollution was extreme! I actually can't believe I went to a Canteen Day! LOL! I feel SO old!! I was like a total adult there. 10 hours in and here I am blogging.

By the way, heres a poem for someone;

"I'm just a guy,
Who waits as the days pass me by,
I would rather die,
Than to see you cry,
But you made me feel alive,
Because you lifted your wings to fly,
On the first of July"

Joke of the day:

Me: Hey you know what would be a great stall for this canteen day?
Prakash: What?
Me: An fan/aircond room; all sit in circles and we charge for the fan use!!
Prakash: LMAO!
Me: I'd seriously pay for it!!
Prakash & gang: Same!

Indian Thriller!!

2007-06-23T13:04:00.000+08:00

Hahaahaha, this HAS to be the funniest thing I've seen in ages!

GIRLY MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

Goodbye.

2007-06-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

It was a year ago when I saw you in Midvalley. You were clad in silver, and beauty couldn't define the way you looked. I gave you my number, and it was set, a beautiful relationship that couldn't be put in words. We hung out together everywhere. You were by my side always, never leaving me for even a second.

It's true, I was unfaithful in our relationship; I took you for granted. I know your emotions were scarred, and left a big hole that could never be taken away. I'm sorry that I hurt you so much in this short period of our relationship. I'm sorry, truly I am.

It was then when you suddenly began showing signs that you were not into our relationship anymore. You began drifting away from me, further away. I know I caused all of this. I know the reasons behind the way that you treated me over the pass few days. You couldn't handle anymore from me.

I had to set things right again, and therefore, I sent you away, for at least 3 days. I know the pain, trust me I do.

Sadly, good things were never meant to last.

At 21 June 2007, I got a SMS saying that you passed away at 5.21p.m. My emotions were uncontrolable when I read the message.

"Beyond Economical Repair."

Goodbye n70, I loved you the most.

Inspire me.

2007-06-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

Gah! I just don't know what to post anymore. I wanted to do a food post for so long, but my handphone got spoilt, so there goes all the pics from Park Royal. Sad.

Anyhoo, guess what? My cousins are coming down from New Zealand! I haven't seen the two in over 3 years! Gosh I miss them! They're the closest cousins I have from my mothers side of the family. First off, my mothers side is HUGE, so HUGE that I've cousins who I don't even know!

It's gonna be great! Hanging with them after so long, I hope it all goes well.

Another thing, I was thinking of entering the 50 years 50 heroes contest posted over at KennySia's blog, but I don't have a hero, or even know one. Any help? Preety please?

I had a bad day.

2007-06-18T13:28:00.001+08:00

Damn, things aren't going the way it should be going.

1. Due to the increase in the number of break-ins in my neighbourhood, parents decided to erect more grills to secure the house. The renovationist, or rather, the griller, accidentally severed the main electricity of the house while drilling, causing the house to occasionally lose electric supply i.e. trip!

2. The frequent electrical outage, caused my television's power supply to burst, NO TV!!

3. While fixing the power supply, my n70 dropped, and guess what? I bet you already know. I'm using mum's phone in the time being.

4. iPod got corrupted, God knows why.

5. My bolster tore ='(

GAHHHHHH!

Celebrities!

2007-06-16T12:21:00.000+08:00

Celebrities that just are SO beautiful!

1. Angela from Angela's Eyes. *no better pic, but trust me, shes damn preety*

2. Angelina Jolie in leather. *Never seen anyone pull off a full leather gown with ease*

3. Jennifer Morrison as Dr.Cameron in House M.D *the intelligent look turns me on!*

5. Avril Lavigne. *Rebel without a cause!*

6. What beautiful lady list would be complete without JESSICA ALBA?? *shes soooooooo godly!*

List to be updated! Ahahah, name me a few as well!

The Language of a Lover

2007-06-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

This is by far, the second biggest move I have done to my blog. After realising some people who I didn't want reading my blog, were actually reading it, I made a drastic move by locking it, and now, I can't stand having a blog that is shut out, so here's my second move.

A new look, a new feel, a new hope, and a new language, of love.

So all I ask is that the faithfull readers of hamjay.blogspot.com, join me on learning the

Language of a Lover.

The Bad Boy Complex.

2007-06-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

First off, got my results, I'm kinda okay with the results, though I didn't ace through it, but for something out of ordinary, I didn't do well at all for a subject that I knew I would do much better than I thought I would. Wait, I'm confusing right? Forget that.

Anyhoo, I was watching House M.D earlier on, and I must say, its a show well worth an hour or more of your time.

It's very interesting, and educational, sorta like CSI, but more biological related complications. The rather amusing part about House, is his bizzare way of diagnosing diseases. He does it in such manner, that you'd be taken in shock of his rude and self-centered personality.

Case Scenario #1:

Tattooed Walk-in Patient: [turning to leave] I should go.

Dr. House: You think it's going to come out on its own? [the patient stops] Are we talking bigger than a bread basket? Because, actually, it will come out on its own, which for small stuff is no problem - it's wrapped up in a nice soft package and plop. Big stuff - you're going to rip something, which, speaking medically, is when the fun stops.

Tattooed Walk-in Patient: How did you--

Dr. House: You've been here half an hour and you haven't sat down, that tells me its location. You haven't told me what it is, that tells me it's humiliating. You have a little birdy carved under your arm, and that tells me you have a high tolerance for humiliation, so I'm figuring it's not hemorrhoids. [pause for awkward silence] I've been a doctor twenty years. You're not going to surprise me.

Tattooed Walk-in Patient: It's an MP3 player.

Dr. House: [trying to keep himself from laughing] Hmm. Is it... is it because of the size, or the shape... or is it the pounding bass line?

Tattooed Walk-in Patient: What are we going to do?

Dr. House: I'm going to wait.

Tattooed Walk-in Patient: For what?!

[Scene change: House leaving the walk-in clinic]

Dr. House: [to the reception nurses] Okay. It's 3 o'clock, I'm off. Could you tell Dr. Cuddy there's a patient in exam room 2 that needs her attention? And the RIAA wants her to check for illegal downloads.

Case Scenario #2:

Dr. House: Everybody lies.

Dr. Cameron: Dr. House doesn't like dealing with patients.

Dr. Foreman: Isn't treating patients why we became doctors?

Dr. House: No, treating illnesses is why we became doctors. Treating patients is what makes most doctors miserable.

Case Scenario #3

Dr. Cameron: Why did you hire me?

Dr. House: Does it matter?

Dr. Cameron: Kind of hard to work for a guy who doesn't respect you.

Dr. House: Why?

Dr. Cameron: Is that rhetorical?

Dr. House: No, it just seems that way because you can't think of an answer. Does it make a difference what I think? I'm a jerk. The only thing that matters is what you think. Can you do the job?

Dr. Cameron: You hired a black guy because he had a juvenile record.

Dr. House: No, it wasn't a racial thing, I didn't see a black guy. I just saw a doctor... with a juvenile record. I hired Chase 'cause his dad made a phone call. I hired you because you are extremely pretty.

Dr. Cameron: You hired me to get into my pants?!

Dr. House: I can't believe that that would shock you. It's also not what I said. No, I hired you because you look good; it's like having a nice piece of art in the lobby.

Dr. Cameron: I was in the top of my class.

Dr. House: But not THE top.

Dr. Cameron: I did an internship at the Mayo Clinic.

Dr. House: Yes, you were a very good applicant.

Dr. Cameron: But not the best?

Dr. House: Would that upset you, really? To think that you were hired because of some genetic gift of beauty, not some genetic gift of intelligence?

Dr. Cameron: I worked very hard to get where I am.

Dr. House: But you didn't have to. People choose the paths that grant them the greatest rewards for the least amount of effort. That's the law of nature, and you defied it. That's why I hired you. You could have married rich, could have been a model, you could have just shown up and people would have given you stuff. Lots of stuff, but you didn't, you worked your stunning little ass off.

Dr. Cameron: Am I supposed to be flattered?

Dr. House: Gorgeous women do not go to medical school. Unless they're as damaged as they are beautiful. Were you abused by a family member?

Dr. Cameron: No!

Dr. House: Sexually assaulted?

Dr. Cameron: No.

Dr. House: But you are damaged, aren't you?

See, in the 3 scenarios, it just shows House is rude, but yet, in the later episodes, Dr.Cameron will fall in love with him, even though he's selfish and self-centered. Why does this doesn't seem so much different in our lives? Girls love bad boys eh? It's kinda weird, but it's true. If you push them away, the more they come back.

Judgement: I gotta be more BAD ASS! Mr.Nice Guys are DOOOOOMED!

Weird Timelocks in India.

2007-06-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

Parents just returned home from their trip to South India, completing their visit to the place where we belong. They covered regions from Ooty to the beautiful Agra. Anyhoo, there were two pics amongst the lot they took that somewhat felt weird, namely the two below;

The Testicle a.k.a Penis Tree

Damn, doesn't it look like a penis? Wahahaha!

In Malaysia, we have stray dogs eating rubbish, but India just had to overdo us eh?

It's Here! It's Here!

2007-05-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

I was on my way back on Monday from college, it was the fine day of May 21, which was THE day Maroon 5's sophomore album hit the shelves. I went to SS15 in the morning, which was when I heard that Hitz.FM was giving out the CD, and some malay guy just won. I was happy for the guy, but heck, I was jealous as hell. So I was on my way back, and incidently, I turned on the radio to Hitz.FM again, and the cue-to-call was on, and I decided to give it a try.

First attempt - Failed

Second attempt - Failed

Third attempt - Got through - YATAAAA!

"Hello this is Hitz.FM, whats your name sir?"

"Er...er...Hamilton"

"Whaaat? Ha-zip-ton?"

"No-no, Hamilton, as in the F1 racer, Luis Hamilton."

"Ok, your telephone number sir?"

"016-222****"

"We'll call you back later to get your details"

"Oh sure sure!"

"Ohhh, ok, now you've won the CD, I want you to act all suprised and shit kay?"

"For sure!"

"We're back on Hitz.Fm and with the Maroon 5's latest album It Won't Be Soon Before Long, and I have a guy named Hamilton here who just won the CD, say woohoo man!"

"Er..woo ho?"

"NO, its WOOOHOOO!"

"Ok fine, WOOHOOOO!!"

So there it was, my voice on the radio for the very second time, the first time, or rather my virgin debut on the radio was when my sister ask me to call them and ask them to play Backstreet Boys - Backstreets Back, but when I called them, I stammered and asked for Backstreets Backstreet - Back Boys! Wahahahha!

Well, after that, I waited and waited for their call, every single day. I was becoming paranoid. Imagine, my favorite band's CD, and I got it for free, and yet, I don't have it! 3 days passed, and they haven't called me, so I called them! They told me to be patient, and that they'd call on Monday.

And so they did! I recieved the call at noon, gave them my details, and woohoo indeed, I got it today!! But the sad part was, they still forgot my name. ZzZzZ!

It's sent to "ShanHamiton", wth lar, can't they butcher my name any more?

Now I can add the songs to my already saturated collection of M5's songs. Wahahaha!

The songs on the CD are quite catchy and have a new vibe. Take my word for it!

Bedroom Survey.

2007-05-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

Damn, seriously I have nothing to post, NOTHING!

NO LYING!!
Do you have the following in your room:
Prakky tagged me.

Condoms:
- nop, decent ler!

Cell phone:
- yeap, two.

Chair/stool:
- got 1, for my comp.

Book shelf:
- nop, have a table tho.

Dresser:
- nah

Computer:
- yeap, 2!

Bean bag:
- nah

Pictures:
- er, sounds weird, but no.

Mirror:
- wish i had one

Skateboard:
- yeap, old school!

Bed:
- whats a bedroom without a bed?

Clothes on the floor:
- yeah, my tee's, i can't sleep with a tee on.

Surfboard:
- nah, malaysians rarely surf

Smoke detector:
- nah.

Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums:
- bass!!

Locking door:
- yeap, but makes a damn loud noise when I wanna lock.

Bottle of water:
- yeapp!

A blacklight:
- nah, blacklights don't really do much in malaysia, a flashlight would be appropriate.

Medals/ribbons:
- nopz

Awards:
- took them off, collecting dust.

Sport accessories:
- dumbells, golfclubs.

CDs:
- yeapzie!

Flag:
- nah, not very patriotic

stop sign/any sign:
- wanted to steal one, care to join?

Caution tape:
- nahh.

Paintball:
- nopz.

Real Gun
- hell no, we don't have the Second Amendment now do we?

Cigarettes:
- had those 2 months ago.

Candle:
- nahh, tooo oldschool.

Books:
- shoved inside my cupboard.

Nintendo:
- had one, broken tho.

Play Station:
- yeap!

Xbox:
- nahh

Stereo:
- hell yeah, my iPod must have its amps!

Television:
- yeapzie!

Lighter:
- er 2months ago.

Gum:
- nop

How many windows do you have in ur room?
- 3.

What is the color of your walls?
- orange, had a tough time painting them last year.

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?:
- tiled.

What color is your bed?
- orangee!

what is on ur walls?
- clock, and a photoframe.

Has the opposite sex been in your room before?
- mum, cousins, sisters, you get the drift.

Random Quotes

2007-05-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

(Mum using laptop in the kitchen, while my msn was on, and I was painting the house outside)
(She comes outside to see me)

Mum: Is Daniel a bad boy?
Me: Huh? Why?
Mum: He is a bad person right?? Watches porn all?
Me: OMG, no lar! Where got?
Mum: Then why did he send you something nude-j?
Me: Nude-j? Whats that?
Mum: I think it's porn, go check.

I rush to the comp, checked it out.

- daniel - My masterpiece! just sent you a nudge.

AHAHAHHA!

Killer Loop!

2007-05-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! New sunglasses!!

KL4140 Bungy!!

Goodbye Premi.

2007-05-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

A butterfly spreads its wings,

And enlightens to the land of dreams,

A holiday for a month or a day,

I was hoping you'd stay.

Gonna miss the chats we had every night, I treasured every moment, ahhaa, have a good trip yarh! =) Quickly come back, I wanna watch Spiderman 3!!

Portfolio

2007-05-18T11:49:00.000+08:00

Portfolio pics coming up, stay tuned =)

A Tag of Music

2007-05-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

Been tagged by Loiusa and Premi. Ahh, tags are one of the only posts that keeps this place alive! I'm using my iPod for this, 'cuz all my songs are inside, ahaha!

Music Tagness!!

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?

Stay the Same - Joey McIntyre

Hmm, I should stay the same today? Hahaha, yeap I will! =)

WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE

Diary of Jane (Acoustic) - Breaking Benjamin

Hmmm, how does this help again? Maybe I should go find this Jane, break her boyfriend named Benjamin, and steal her diary??

WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG?

Do Me Right - Jamelia

Alvin wants me to do him right? EWWWWW! Disgusto~

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?

To Make Her Love Me - Rascall Flatts

What the hell?? Damn true!

WHAT WAS HIGHSCHOOL LIKE?

Halo - Haley James Scott (One Tree Hill OST)

High School was a Halo, probably lar, Form 4 and 5 were awesome!

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?

Collide - Howie Day

Collide my way with a someone, or a car collision? Maybe the former, definetly not the latter!

WHAT'S THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?

Hero - Enrique Iglesias

My friends are heroes, yeah! Toby the elevator man! =)

DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS

Gone - Chris Daughtry

LOL! This was damn random! Ahahahha! Never knew them actually, 'cuz they were gone before I matured.

HOW'S YOUR LIFE GOING?

Seven Days - Craig David

Hmm, yeah I guess, its going through the mundane seven days per week. It's damn funny how this post works!

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (DONT LAUGH!)

Look What You've Done - Jet

Ahahah, looks like I've done something really good, or really bad! Maybe I became a person who achieved something I really wanted.

WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?

As Long As You Love Me - Backstreet Boys

As long as you love me, I guess I'll have a very happy and prosperous life?

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

Wth? When I'm gone, you all will miss me dearly? *why is all of the songs regarding to the absene of me from the world??*

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?

We Believe - Good Charlotte

Yeah! You guys believe that people lust over me, yeahh riiiggghhttt man!

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?

Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake

Wth? Make my self happy by someone crying me a river? Weird! The last thing I wanna do is to see you cry.

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?

In My Hands - Chris Daughtry (American Idol 5 - Encore)

AHHAHA! My life is in my hands ;)

WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?

Hey Now Hey Now - Crowded House

Hey now hey now, don't talk about children so fast lar! I'm only like 19 lar, another 10 years to go lar!

WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?

Almost Honest - Josh Kelley

Err, dunno what does this mean in any way, but it's a great song tho!

WHAT DOES YOUR MOM THINK OF YOU?

Somebody Told Me - The Killers

"Somebody told me you're doing (insertsomethingbadandtotallyrandomhere) !" said Mum.

WHAT IS YOUR DEEP, DARK SECRET?

Real Good Man - Tim McGraw

AHAHAHHA, TOO SIGNIFICANT! Told you I'm a real bad boy, but baby, I'm a real good man!

WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?

Superstar - Jamelia

Hmm, don't have a mortal enemy, but maybe she's a superstar ;)

WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?

Come What May - Moulin Rouge Soundtrack

Hahaha, damn freaky wey the way my iPod reacts to this tag! Yeah, I'm sorta a 'come-what-may' kinda dude.

WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?

Unfaithful - Rihannna

Hey hello, I'm damn damn freaky faithful one okay?! =.="

Hahaha weird tag lol! I hereby tag,

Toby

Michelle

Allen

Lydkwan

Andrea

Car Modding =)

2007-05-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

My experimentation with car mods with photoshop.

Original

Edited

Darkened

Those 3 words, are said too much, are not enough.

2007-05-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

I've got tagged by Michelle.

"Those who have contracted the touch of this venom MUST write any poetry that is made up of 3 words a line, and a minimum of 12 lines. The poem may be of any content(preferably something vile)."

Here it goes:

Hands wide open,
My eyes open,
I keep hoping,
Your heart opens,
Up to me.

Like words unspoken,
There's no option,
On love's ocean,
You're the captain.

Stars a million,
Only you can,
Make me brighten.

*wah damn hard larh!*

Matrix 4?

2007-05-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

Omg! There's a new movie coming out! Matrix 4: The Return.
It's damn cool! A new character is taking over Neo, as he died in last Matrix!
See the poster below!

I heard the new character is called Hamjay! COOL!

The Idiot VS. Girls.

2007-05-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

You can be sure someone is an idiot when :
~ spends twenty minutes looking at an orange juice box because it said "concentrate."
~ puts lipstick on the forehead because he wanted to makeup his mind.
~ gets stabbed in a shoot-out.
~ sends a fax with a stamp on it.
~ was on the corner giving out potato chips yellin' "Free Lays!"
~ tries to drown a fish.
~ If you gave them a penny for their intelligence, you'd get change.
~ thinks socialism means partying. ~ trips over a cordless phone.
~ takes a ruler to bed to see how long he slept.
~ At the bottom of the application where it says "Sign Here" he put "Sagittarius."
~ takes 2 hours to watch 60 minutes.
~ studies for a blood test and fails.
~ invents a solar powered flashlight.
~ sells the car for gas money.
~ heard 90% of all crimes occur around the home, he moves
~ misses the 44 bus, and takes the 22 twice instead.
~ takes you to the airport and saw a sign that said, "Airport left",he turned around and went home.
~ got locked in Furniture Shop and slept on the floor.

51 things girls didn't know about guys.*

* 1. Guys hate sluts. *

*2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys
open with to stop from stammering on the phone. *

*3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly care about. *

*4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna
say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it
all and makes it up as he goes. *

*5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. *

*6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. *

*7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
Unless they're goin for the
let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-
how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method. *

*8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. *

*9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. *

*10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend. *

*11. Guys get jealous easily. *

*12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think. *

*13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.."
would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to
figure it out. *

*14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like. *

*15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come
up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works
because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money
anyway. *

*16. Girls are guys' weaknesses. *

*17. Guys are very open about themselves. *

*18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him
wait too long. *

*19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his
problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend. *

*20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen
to him. You don't need to give advice. *

*21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.*

* 22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your
relationships. *

*23. Guys will brag about anything. *

*24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use
beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you. *

*25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she
doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to
figure out what it meant. *

*26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused. *

*27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no
guy can write out a book about relationships.*

* 28. Try to be as straightforward as possible. *

*29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature
and grown up. *

*30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think
about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with
the girl. *

* 31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is
key. *

*32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read
and take as their basis of experience. *

*33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being
whipped. *

*34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it
and is spazzing inside. *

*35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys
rarely say that. *

*36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,
"Please come and listen to me."*

* 37. Guys don't really have final decisions.*

* 38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen
that often, so when it does, you know something's up. *

*39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you. *

*40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely
thinking something. *

*41. Guys like femininity not feebleness. *

*42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do. *

*43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. *

*44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. *

*45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too
much. *

*46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. *

*47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more. *

*48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. *

*49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a
day. *

*50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn
to admit it *

*51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he
represents ALL of us.

Its all true, don't deny it. ;)

My blog going private.

2007-05-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

The reason behind my sudden and drastic move is because,

MY PARENTS READ MY BLOG!

IMAGINE THAT!

God!

The attack of the elderly with technology.

In a blink of an eye.

2007-05-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

Refer to post below.

Imagine the year before the 3 lost their lives. Imagine the dreams they had, like their future husband, or how many kids they would have, or maybe their ambitions.

Death doesn't warn before it appears in a blink of an eye. It may come so suddenly, that you are forced to realise, what have you actually done in this life?

Have you saved anothers life?
Have you made your parents proud?
Have you badmouthed someone?
Have you loved someone?
Have you been loyal to God?
Have you done things that aren't right in the eyes of God?

I couldn't help putting myself in their shoes. Getting up one day, gone in the next. They didn't get the chance to tell their loved ones how much they loved them, or probably had a crush on this guy and always wanted to tell him? It's possible.

Life is fragile, and adding to that, temporary. If I close my eyes tonight, and did not wake up tommorrow, I know I'll never be saved.

God bless your souls.

2007-05-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

Its sad to say that 3 friends of mine, although they don't know me personally, have returned to God, due to a fatal car crash this past Tuesday at 2.30a.m. Although I didn't know them personally, I feel sorry and sad for their families and relatives and friends as they have to cope with the loss.

Three beautiful girls, all gone in a blink of an eye.
Three beautiful girls, which so much to live for.
Three beautiful girls, who God loved more than us could.

Whatever you do, do not forget that life is precious. Never take it for granted.
As a driver myself, who always speeds, I hereby swear, for the sake of my loved ones, I shall not speed. I love you guys, too much to make you suffer losing me.

Jagdeep, and the three girls, Easwari, Rashween, and Kosheila, our prayers are with you.

For those of you who want to read on this more:

God bless your souls.

Guess?

2007-04-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

Something is rather exciting about this picture. Can anyone guess what it is?

THE ANSWER IS, MY BIRTDAY IS THE SERIAL NUMBER. 17/7/07!!

Gay-ness.

2007-04-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

Okay Pramilah pointed out to me three weird, wrong things that I do;

1. I said I liked her cat bag.

Not like this;

Or like this; *ewwww*

But something like this;

2. I watched Mr.World, c'mon lar, I need to know what I'm supposed to be right? Lol.

I look like him, right? Yeah I know I do, ahahah.

3. That I read CLEO magazine.

Tantric Sex Tricks? Hmmm..... ;)

Dashboard Confessionals Sound Plug - My Wish

2007-04-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

My Wish - Rascal Flatts.

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

More then anything, more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and you always give more then you take.

Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Tag it like you mean it.

2007-04-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Darn! Tagged by Pramilah and Prakash! You guys arhh! Double tag me! ahah!

5 Reasons Why I Blog:

1. To show the different side of me, not the one you thought you knew, you know, the noisy one.

2. To make friends, heads up to Lydia Kwan! =)

3. To let out my feelings; like my stories and my poems and also my art.

4. To pass time by, as sometimes I have nothing to do.

5. To do tags like these, ahah, riiggghhttt! *winks at Pramilah and Prakash~*

5 People I tag:

NO ONE!

MUAHAHHAHA!

In the mood of sharing, after all, it is caring.

2007-04-24T10:26:00.000+08:00

In the spirit of all things good, I would like to ask the readers of this blog, 10 of you, to submit 1-3 words that you really love. With those words, I'll make for you a custom graphic, either for msn or for any thing else, you just name the size. If you like, I'll add pictures that you yourself submit to me. So tell me yar;

1. Hamilton - Serendipity; a fortunate accident.

This one is mine, but I intentionally put my nick all over it, to prevent people from stealing, ahah! And yes, I did it from scratch, the background is also mine.

Prestige.

2007-04-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

I took the cure, for happiness,
Maybe it was for the best,
But help me, I'm in such a mess,
God, is this really a test?

The heart that longs,
The mind, body and spirit follows,
Were you the one standing there all along?
Or may this lead me to the gallows.

I've been blind, I do not see,
The world spiralled, but I was in glee,
I am on my knee,
Would you be mine, forever be?

In a dream, not too long ago,
You appeared, to make all sorrows go,
In a dream, not too long ago,
You took away everything, and more.

What lies ahead, one cannot know,
But I am there for you,
You in yellow, made the world mellow,
Hold my hand, and follow through.

Have you ever been lonely? Lonesome? Feeling that no one is there for you? And that the reality of this world is slowly eating you away?
Have you ever felt like it would help if you just dissapeared, died, or vanished? I have, and I know many others have felt or will feel this sooner or later.

Well actually, in a closer specatacle, the truth about this feeling is not as deep as we thought it was. Think, we often are lonely, and we can't do without that person, but hey, does the person deserve your thoughts, and your tears every single time you close your eyes? Is the person really that irreplaceable? See, what is love? What is this void that is unquenchable? If someone loved you, they won't trade you because he/she couldn't wait for you to accept him/her. They would wait, wait, and wait, and when they couldn't wait anymore, they'd continue waiting. That my friend, is true love.

Well, if you don't see it the first time, it's no biggie, shit happens for the most of us. Pick yourself up where you let go, and move on. I would like to take this opportunity to say this;

Everyone deserves a partner, and also, every guy should be able to date any girl that he loves, as he knows he could and would protect you. So girls, think, maybe the guy ain't that good looking, or maybe he's not your McDreamy (thanks Premila!), but will he sacrifice himself, for you, and most importantly, for the both of you. If he can, congratulations, you have just found a real man. I'm saying this is not for the gratification nor the glorification of the male species, as some of them truly do not deserve the balls. However, what I am saying is that, girls, trust me on this, don't go after a guy, never go after a guy. Instead, let a guy go after you. Why?

1. The guy you went after one day might turn on you an say, "I never loved you, you loved me, I just followed through". Male ego, trust me.

2. A guy who goes after you, as I said, loved you for who you are, and wants you to be the very same person he had eyes on since the beginning. He won't want you to change into someone he could hang with. He loves you, and will love you the way you are.

3. A guy who goes after you, will make you happy, as he will suffer, not you. See, when you go after a guy, you'll always ask yourself, does he love me? "His smile, do you think he likes me by smiling?". But if a guy goes after a girl, he'd be the one asking himself questions, to make YOU happy, and subsequently, himself.

See girls, treasure the one guy that makes you happy, not the guy you wish would make you happy. Think, trust, and most of all, love. As I said, don't be blinded by false pretences of love with a guy/girl deep down you know you won't be happy with. Don't succumb to loneliness, you know you can help yourself, but how? Your just looking in the wrong places. Open up, they're many people who wish they could make you happy. Let them in, who knows, among them lies the one you've been waiting for all your life.

Love is imaginary, an abstract being, but the relationship between the two codifies it, and makes it real.

Sorry.

Dashboard Confessionals Sound Plug: Honey and the Moon.

2007-04-21T00:33:00.000+08:00

Honey and the Moon - Joseph Arthur.

Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives.

Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love's game
You would call; I'd call you back
And then I'd leave
A message
On your answering machine

But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives

Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom, freedom
Run away
Run away tonight

We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
Without
A fight
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and the moon
That lights
Up my night

But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish that I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives

Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom freedom
Run away
Run away tonight

We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill
We hang around

Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up
All the time I've falling down

But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives

Joke!

2007-04-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

I was at SS15 Subang today, and decided to have lunch at McDonald's. As usual, I had no money *DAMN YOU ASIA CLUB!!* So anyway, I decided to try something cheap, yet filling, so I bought this Everyday Ringgit McSavers, or something like that.

So I tried their Country Grilled Chicken Burger, and,

I FRIGGING LOVE IT!

It filled my heart with love and kindness that I bought one for Daniel and another for me as well. GOD DAMN IT ROCKS MY SOCKS! The cabbage, the mayo, the purple-ish thingy, the carrots, oohhh la-la. One word, orgasmic.

So anyway, there I was ordering my third burger. The waited gave my order to me, and I proceeded to get some straws. The next customer steps up;

"Good day miss, eat in or take-away?"
"Er...eat in."
"What would you like to order miss?"
"I would have the M C Chicken. (SHE ACTUALLY PRONOUNCED IT AS M C, not MAC!)
"What?"
"The MC Chicken?"
"You mean Mac-chicken?"
"Yaya! I forgot."

OMGWTFBBQHAX0RS~! How can they not know what MC stands for after living this world like so long??

Sheesh!

Brainless fools? Or fools with brains?

2007-04-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

Whats with people this days? Can't they just be THEMSELVES??
I know people love sucking up to people with power, but come on, there certainly has to be an extent right? Well, in my case, NO.

Lets say a certain someone named A, didn't like me, and was always picking on me when its NOT even my fault! Okay I know I sound whiny here but, seriously why me? I know I talk alot, yeah sue me for taking up legal studies, but, thats just me. So, this A person complained and contemplated to/with B.

One more thing straight, if one person heard an issue someone spoked about, and told someone else, it would be considered spreading rumours and gossipping. What if the WHOLE GOD-DAMNED class heard it? I'm not blaming you C, your a guy with a class of your own, and I honestly respect you for that.

So anyway, thats what I spoke to B about, what someone had said, which was undeniably heard by everyone in the entire class. Well, half way through the conversation, I realized that B had done the most remorseful thing a person can do! B actually told C!

So here comes the best part. A + B decided that they should blow matters way out of porpotion, and hence they arranged a meet with me and C.

"Mr.C would like to see you at sharp 12 today,"
"Oh, which Mr.C?"
"The only Mr.C!"
"Oh, ohkay, where and what time?"
"12, at level 3A."
"Whats it about?"
"Oh, nothing. I also dunno,"

BLADY HELL LIAR! You so scared to lose respect is it you homosexual nincompoop? If you wanna arrange a meet, at least be professional about it. You got some nerve acting like some faggot ass angel, don't you?

So heck, I went up to 3A, to find that C was not there. Fine, I gave my details to the person in charge.

3 hours later, comes A knocking on my class door,

"Have you met C yet?"
"Nop, C wasn't there when I went to see C."
"Follow me now."

Its as if that this mofo, really wanted to put me in a stitch. And mind you, it 'so happen' that A still doesn't know why C wanted to see me. You ball-less freak of nature. What world do we live in, where people masquarade with false pretenses.

So I followed A to C, and my, was C 'glad' to see me.

I was bombarded with tonnes of questions that I came to realize that this is it. This was the moment, this was the time I was going to die. Honestly.

I began explaining that I DID not spread rumours about him, and why would I? Don't I have better things to do? Thank God for a friend who I called in to save my day, and yes he is a superhero.

Mr.C was EXTREMELY professional about it after the explaination, and my word, there and then, I have never gave respect, this much respect to someone who I just knew 10 minutes ago. Mr.C and I began talking like friends for about an hour, and he was totally cool about the matter, and said that it was all just a big misunderstanding. The best part was, he complemented me on several qualities he saw that I had. Mr.C, as I said, your a man with a class of your own.

But seriously, A + B, you double headed duo, you should learn to think before you act, and my oh my, what foolish garbage you are, and you have lost the entirity of the little respect I had for you.

Be gone.

On a much uplifting notion,

1) Toby and I had THE foos game of the week; by trashing people 7-2; snake after snake after snake plus impressive defense shots. Good times good times.

2) FREE RED-BULL-S!

3) I became close to someone with real power!

Ta'raa!

I'm fine!

2007-04-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Recently I realized that outta the 370 songs in my iPod, 300 of them are really down right EMO songs! I was shocked at this!!

Imagine, every song your gonna listen next, puts you into the sappy lovey duvey mood.
For instance;

1. Sway - Bic Runga
2. Let Me Love You - Mario Winans
3. I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance
4. To Her, With Love - Kara's Flowers/Maroon 5
5. Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
6. The list goes on to 300.

What the hell is up with me man? I am fine emotionally tho, but I think I can say that I'm going through what they call, The Emotional Fool period =)

Adios Matey!

Cogito Ergo Sum, El Amore.

2007-04-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

A essay I have been writing for some time now, its not complete, here's an introduction people =).

“I love you,” I uttered softly into her ears, that were fashioned with the very earrings I had bought for her last Valentines.
It was a windy night; a night very much like the romantic nights portrayed in numerous Hollywood romance flicks. The stars were out, and it gave a rather bright Monday night. I walked closely behind her; my hand on her hips, as we headed to the car.
The night felt perfect. An evening movie, followed by a scrumptious dinner at the café, and now, shiny stars to gaze upon. Thank you God, thank you. Cheryl’s face was not gleaming with life as it was a year ago. I remember Valentines 2006, the wits and brawn of a teenager carefully and meticulously preparing everything to make it a night to remember for his special someone; from the preparation of the Valentines card to carefully selecting the fine dining restaurant, and from picking out only the freshest flowers from the lot at Gladys, and to selecting the right scent of perfume to impress her. Things were funny and yet memorable those days. I cared nothing more than a rats ass for the world, and gave the lump sum of my life to her, to Cheryl.

Leave comments please!!

Thanks.

2007-04-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

Weeks been really really rough, by far the roughest week I've had.
But hey, I'd like to thank Michelle, and pinknerd.

Without your support, I wouldn't have made it this far. Thanks, from the deepest corners of my heart. Thank you.

You took care of me, when others used me.

How well do YOU know the authentic me?

2007-04-10T01:22:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

LoL!

2007-04-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

Ok I know it sucks!

Lancer Evo.It sucks more than words can describe, ahah.

You're a liar in denial.

2007-04-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

I hate you, and no I don't hate a female, its a male. I hate your guts.

I wish I could.

2007-04-05T11:20:00.000+08:00

*Caution, emo-ness ahead.*

I wish I could be invisible at times, to rather be alone than to be acknowledged.

I wish I could die, to earn the coup de grace.

I wish I could relive some experiences, to go back in time, just to relive the good times.

I wish I could turn back time, to take the roads I had not taken.

I wish I could be holier, to be closer to God, to really know the true meaning of life.

I wish I could have never been born at times, as sometimes reality gets the best of me.

I wish I could somehow vanish, without a trace.

I wish I could change parts of myself that I know needs changes.

I wish I could make certain people dissapear from my life, to end my suffering and torment.

I wish I could gain, without pain.

I wish I could stop the world, stop time, for us, me and you, to share the entire planet, to finally say I could give you the world, and actually mean it.

I wish I could make sex cease to exist, don't ask why.

I wish I could be more appreciated, to actually be trusted and to have someone confide in me.

I wish I could have real good friends that shared every single emotion that I felt, not people who come and go, but friends who actually stay.

I wish I could, most of all, be in love with you, and you in me.

I wish I could.

Choong Wai this is for you!

2007-04-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Since Allen has been so into Phua Chu Kang; I found this joke the other day. Enjoy!

Phua Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to
Chu Beng's son, Aloysius ...

Aloy : Why is making love so
enjoyable ?
PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws,
same like when you dig your nose
with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex
more
than men?
PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you
dig
dig your nose, your nose feel
better than your finger, right ?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they
get raped ?
PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the
load(road),den someone come over
and dig your nose, you like or
not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have
sex
when she is having her menses?
PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you
still go and dig meh?? Siow ah !Use
your Blain(brain), use your
blainnn ..........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like
wearing condoms when they are making
love?
PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah,
you like to dig with a glove
on your finger or not ? Not
the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight
(correct) or not?

Aloy : Why is making love carried out
in
private ?
PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use
your blainnnnn . you go and dig your
nose in flont of your whole
class izit ?? Stupid lah!!

Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you
are very good.
PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore
and
JB, and some say Batam also ah !!!

Chain letters, horoscopes and such.

2007-04-03T11:10:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps! Ok first and foremost, disregard my nick in MSN! Yeah, I know it looks angry, heh, but thats who I am.

Anyway, I HATE CHAIN LETTERS! I don't get it. A norm friend will usually wish you luck, but hey, currently, most friends are QUICKLY passing on chain letters to avoid bad luck at them? Which friend passes bad luck at their friends thru email la? Jokers.

If only all chain letters were like this.

Well, been going through some horoscopes thingy, and I must say, some of them are kinda true, SOME! Posted some up in case you guys feel like having a go at them.

I'm a B2

Your date describes you!
Dear friends. Below, is an Italian
horoscope and you can find a lot about
youself just by searching your own
identity in the Italian way.

What you have to do is to find your
group with the help of your date of
birth.

Date of Birth Group

01,06,11,16,21,26,31
A1

02,07,12,17,22,27
B2

03,08,13,18,23,28
C3

04,09,14,19,24,29
D4

05,10,15,20,25,30
E5

Group A1 You consider love as
the most beautiful thing and you love
to
fall in love, but a number of your
group
members think that the person they love
is not sincere with them. You love to
be
with your friends and you are always
found to be a dutiful friend. You can
hardly control your patients, which is
a
very big drawback of your nature.

The Person who is ruling your
mind & heart these days is perfect for
you.

Group B2 Your dreams and
ambitions are much important for you
and
you can do everything to fulfill your
dreams. Love is much valuable in your
life but you always search for someone
perfect. You hardly trust someone. Your
friends are really important for you
but
normally you hide a lot from them. You
are a deep thinker you always study the
negative view as well as positive.
You can lead a happy life with a
person for whom you care a lot these
days.

Group C3 You always prefer
mantel decisions more then emotional
ones due to this you don't have a
limited number of friends. You consider
life a very beautiful gift and you love
to enjoy its colors. There are a number
of peoples who are your ideals and you
loved to spend a big part of your time
with them. You are found to be a very
sincere lover.. You have a perfect
control on your emotions but sometimes
your decisions really effect your
beloveds.
The person who has just appeared
in your mind and you has decided to
forward this mail especially to him/her
is your real and special friend.

Group D4 Your always have goals
to achieve and you can do everything to
fulfill the dreams of those who loves
you. You have a sketch of an ideal in
your mind and you always search for
that
personality. Your friends means a lot
to
you and you can do everything for the
sake of your friend, you a normally
found to be an emotional personality.
You have a very less control on your
patients and due to this sometimes you
over react.
The one who sent you this mail &
the one to whom you will send this mail
first are your real friends.

Group E5 You are found to be a
person who loves to love. You prefer
emotional decision more then mantel
decisions. You consider life just to
enjoy; you are the one who is perfect
to
call FLURTIES. You love to increase the
list of your friends and beloved???s.
You have a number of dreams but
you never work hard to make your dreams
come true which is the biggest drawback
in your nature you take everything much
lightly.

I'm a Cancer.

Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologic predictor. Read your sign, then forward it
on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line, This is real
deal, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible
day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour.
Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive.
Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4
years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the
last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever
wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not
forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and
sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however
not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... u might end up crying... 9 years
of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent
kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad
luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in
long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your
expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck
if you do not forward

GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know
where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always
happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a
beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if
you do not forward

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun.
Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down
to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad
luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very
romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely
random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a
Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you
should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last
word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around.Extremely weird but in a good
way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves
to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not
forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what
he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to
joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight
for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need.
Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one
to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if
you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in
long relationships. So much love to give.
Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They
meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal.
Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!!
Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying. 4
years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Here's a short clip from Explosm, it's DARN funny!

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Hahhah!

2007-04-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

I never knew Mario Winans and Rihanna were dating.

See, Mario Winans came up with his song - "I don't wanna know," which tells about his girlfriend having an affair.

Rihanna on the other hand, came up with "Unfaithful," which says she is cheating and she doesn't wanna hurt him.

LOL!

The Incredible Flying (Belly) Man!

2007-03-30T16:04:00.000+08:00

It was half past 3 in the evening. The air was cold, and had the heavy stench of nicotine. The three Heroes, were on their way back from 7th heaven after practising their shots and forming their strategy on a table with 26 dual coloured men.

They stood beside the exit machine, and Flying Man called for it. It was a subtle and magnificent piece of engineering. The three Heroes waited patiently for the machine to arrive. As soon as in appeared, its silver doors opened to reveal a rather crowded chamber.

Then, it was a matter of wheter to wait for the next machine, or to take this crowded one. They chose the latter. They squeezed inside. Flying Man was the last to enter the machine, and he had to stand in front of the the other two heroes, his back facing the doors.

It was then that one of the heroes told the Flying Man not to stand with his back facing the doors. Flying Man nonchalantly replied that it was alright and he had to be a man and also there was no other choice.

Suddenly Flying Man's cape got stuck between the doors of the machine, and it pulled him up like a chicken dangling in a Chicken Rice Shop. Flying Man was injured!!

The real story:

After a game of foosball, Dan, I and Toby were heading back to Technical English 2. We called for the elevator, and when it came, it was SUPREMELY crowded.

Toby entered last into the elevator, and I told him not to stand with his back facing the doors.

His bag got stuck between the elevator doors and it pulled him up! LOL! *sorry Toby, but its DAMN FUNNY*

The result was a bruised arm.

Listen to the elders Toby! EHHE!

I have nothing to blog!

2007-03-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

OMG! Im running out of ideas! BLOGGERS BLOCK! OMG OMG! Heh, but anyway, I've upladed some nice renditions of Picasso's The Three Graces, tell me which you like best! The first pic is the original.

Sick

2007-03-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. Will continue blogging as soon as I am well. Sorry!

Nerdie!

2007-03-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

Nerdie! Why are you feasting on my loneliness? ahahah! Okok, heres a love poem for you then, but not aimed at you la! ;)

----

It's that time of the year again,
The time for us to renew and regain,
Should we abstain?
Or should we remain?
-----
Your eyes remind me of a dream,
Of a valley with a deep stream,
You're more than you seem,
And I love you from deep within.
-----
Give her wings so that she could fly,
To her, be more than just a guy,
And to her, always try,
Never lie,
As the time for US is nigh.
-----
Trying to be the only one,
Since you made me drawn,
But between you I'm torn,
Until dusk becomes dawn.

Hum Halleluyah.

2007-03-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

This is an emo post and entirely fictional and was not meant to hurt anyone, I swear. Readers beware, may cause nausea and the usual lovey-dovey emotions in a instant. This post is for your reading pleasure, please do NOT copy nor redistribute it. I wrote this with every feeling that echoes in my empty heart. Thank you.

"I could write it better than you ever felt it," Fall Out Boys.

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She stood in front of me, eyes fastened on my already motionless pupils. My eyes, my mind, my thoughts, everything, was for her, and for her only. There was never a moment in my life that I stood agape, wondering if things were for the better now.

The year was fresh, nevertheless cumbersome for a guy like me. 19 years I have lived, and not once, had I ever felt this lonely. Imagine that, a guy like me, to have no one to live for, no one to share my experiences with, no one to be there by my side, no one to call my own. I had to choose between sorrow, and happyness; I chose the latter. However, attaining happiness is no childs play.

Combining my inner strength and the hope, the will, and the superficial soul, the one that I never had to begin with; I entered the labor-force for the first time. It all started like a veil of uncertainty covering a empty plain; with no remorse nor a shadow of doubt. Days passed on; every single day eating time like it were ants on a hill of sugar. I was doing fine. I was doing much better than I was to begin with.

Surely I had made a mistake to think this was how it was going to be till the end.

Seing her clad in her own unique sense of style, made me wonder, is she really all that? Does she not care about the people around her, the ever looking eyes of evil and deception? Of deceit, dillemma and perils? Somehow I envied her, heavenly and yet down to earth as she may seem, she was warm. The warmth of a woman I had hungered for so long. The tender, soft-spokenness of an angel. I wanted her more. I wanted her to cure the scars, the pain, and the void that has left me insecure.

I wanted her, I needed her, I had to have her, I couldn't live without her, I couldn't breathe without her, I just couldn't do without her, although I couldn't have her, nor I didn't have her.

The first day we exchanged words would mark a long but memorable lapse of time. A bright sunny day to commemorate this happy meet. Halleluyah, I would hum, if I had the second chance to relive that day. It was meant to be that we began becoming more and more drawn to each other. I wanted to spend every day, every second, every tear, laugh, and pain with her; to become her tail.

Weeks passed, this time, slower than I had anticipated. Somehow, I treasured life, and all it had to offer, in greater depths than I used to. Was this feeling love? The burning sensation that I felt every time I took a breath? Is this image burned in my heart really her? Is this what Romeo and Juliet died for? I was ready to do the same, for her, and for everything she believed in.

I loved her more than life itself. Every day I'd look at my cellphone, waiting for a hint, or rather an sms, to show that she really did believe in me, in us, and for us. It was special what we had, we believed in us, with every single cell of blood flowing in our every vein and arteries. Unique in a sense that I know knew someone breathes for me, and I for her.

Every word reminded me of her. Every single time I opened my eyes, there she stood, with her calming, soothing aura than I reckon was the end to all pain. There was nothing compared to having her close by, to have held her hand, to have her sit next to me, her delicate skin against my coarse, rough beast-like hand.And from having her sleep next to me, to watch her calm face that made everything worthwhile; to having her lay on my chest, to hear the heart that beats and pumps blood into my veins for her; to holding her in my arms, as wished time would just freeze and shatter all inanimate existence, except ours. Imagine being in total solitude, but having just one more soul around and in you, forever yours. Imagine being lonely, just the two of us, in a crowded room. Imagine not living for anyone else, but just for us, and for us alone. Imagine not caring for anything other than the significant other. Imagine....

It was heaven, 7th heaven as I would say. But my words weighed no more than a grain of unworthy sand on a beach. In this unforgiving world, only what they say carried weight, and they said 'All good things must come to an end'.

It ended as soon as it begun. As fast as wild fire spread across numerous dried and withered trees. Somehow, it just wasn't meant to be. Feelings, yet again they say, comes easy, and goes hard.

Thanks for the memories. Halleluyah, I'll have to carry on without you.

I've taken it up again.

2007-03-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

14 in a day, 2 boxes in two days.
Is it enough?
I already started making my own.

Personality.

2007-03-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

I took this test after going thru Prakash's blog. I find it VERY MUCH true, but not AMAZINGLY true tho.Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

Trait Snapshot:
craves attention, messy, open, rash, irritable, likes large parties, low self control, weird, fragile, does not like to be alone, emotionally sensitive, worrying, depressed, heart over mind, does not respect authority, dependent, not rule conscious, not good at saving money, more interested in relationships than intellectual pursuits, likes to fit in, very social, frequently second guesses self, phobic, suspicious, not careful, outgoing, vain, compassionate, aggressive, likes to make fun, hates to lose

---

I miss my guitar suddenly.

Best Albums Of My Life.

2007-03-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

What do both the albums above have in common?
The represent my life, the pain, the anguish, the happyness, and the anger.
Highly recommended =). God, I sound like a salesman.

Anyway, I have both the albums, and here are the track listings.

Maroon 5 - Songs about Jane *Jane is Adam Levine's ex, thats what I heard.*

1. Harder to Breathe
2. This Love
3. Shiver
4. She Will Be Loved
5. Tangled
6. The Sun
8. Sunday Morning
9. Secret
10. Through With You
11. Not Coming Home
12. Sweetest Goodbye

Chris Daughtry - Daughtry *what a neat album name*

1. It's Not Over
2. Used To
3. Home
4. Over You
5. Crashed
6. Feels Like Tonight
7. What I Want (featuring Slash)
8. Breakdown
9. Gone
10. There And Back Again
11. All These Lives
12. What About Now

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Seriously, the songs here that are in BOLD are A-rated. Try them.

March the 12th.

2007-03-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

It's been damn long since I met you, OMG you look SO differrent. You've grown into a fine, refined young lady haven't you? God I miss you. It was nice meeting you today, even though it was for awhile.

----

On a totally unrelated matter,

I've begun seeing, that you were only an Infatuation.

I loved you more, 8388.

Premi's 19!

2007-03-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

Well 7th of March was Pramilah's birthday, but I TOTALLY forgot! OMG I'm so sorry Premi! Your SO kind hearted to have invited me to the party! Thanks! A shoutout to Renu on her birthday as well which was on the 8th.

So anyway, we had a small gathering in TGIF Subang. The place was CROWDED! But it was well worth the time la. Premi, we had a great time talking on the way there eh? =)
Below are some pics from that memorable day!

1. The 3 SAM sufferers!

2. See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil, and WE ARE EVIL!

3. Prakash checking out his teeth on the camera screen. LOL!

4. Mudsliders.

4. I spy with my own eye, PRAKASH's white teeth! LOL.

6. I love this pic man! We look like celebs.

6. Am I angry or what?

7. Premi being asked to stand on a chair and speak her mind. When do people get that opportunity these days eh?

7. Omigosh, TIMBER! Lol!

8. The politician in Premi.

9. Out, out, brief candle.
10. TGIF Crew.

11. TGIF Crew with Premi.

12. Premi and her cake.

13. Group pic. Clockwise from left; Prakash, me, Sanjay, Ash, Dhalini, Premi, Ashwini.

14. Three muskeeter-ees.

15. Charlie' Devils. Lol, 'Charlie' looks constipated. Hahaha!

Vins 18th Birthday

2007-03-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

Pics from that day

1. Chiew Hoe(Sasuke) and me, ahaha. Check out my eyes man, sleepyy!

2. Remember this pic guys? Haha, good old days.

Vast differences between the two pics huh?

3. Kevin Tan - Vin's boyfriend, suprising her with a cake.
4. Check out Vins smile. Super happy! Hahaha, but then I didnt take this pic, VK did, so sorry bout the half head Vin.
5. Make a wish!
6. Group pic. *check out Alvin, he's hiding!*

Dashboard Confessionals SoundPlug: Over you

2007-03-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

Chris Daughtry's Over you.

*I couldn't get the song file for this*

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally getting’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

F*ck off, to love.

2007-03-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

This is my first time using foul language/profanity in my blog, and its dedicated to the feeling we all know oh-so well, Love.

F*ck off pain, you cause every part of me to bleed.
F*ck off you f*cking life, I hate being me.
F*ck off everything that I believed in.
F*ck off believing, trusting and having faith.

You f*cking love life, get the f*ck behind me.
Get away you cursed, wretched feeling.
I wish I could do without your f*cking influence in my f*cking life.
Whats the use having you, when all you return is this f*cking pain?
Pure love given, tainted dark, f*cked up love returned.

Most of all, f*ck you.
F*ck you.
F*ck the f*cking you.
Your nothing more than a bloody f*cked up Cupid.

Tagged again!

2007-03-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

sianyee and lydia tagged me! =)

1. I love to sleep! Yeah I know I'm lazy larh!

2. I can EASILY fall in love, but I find it hard to let go.

3. Hmm, I love and hate 'love'. Its like, when your in love, you love love to bits, and when you decided not to love, you don't love love anymore. Get it? Wahahah!

4. I actually HATE to blog. But sometimes I use this site to get this off my chest.

5. I love self-pity. It's become a part of me.

6. I'm ALWAYS used, and I mean ALWAYS used.

I am gonna tag :
- allen tong
- pinknerd
- prax
- pramilah
- toby
- xewei

Thanks Earl!

2007-03-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

Earl-ku over at kukujiao.com was kind enough to hook me up with this complementary email!
So now on, any emails regarding this blog would be directed to

ihaveabig@kukujiao.com

Seriously!

Maybe.

2007-03-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'll grow up.
Maybe I won't.

Maybe the time will come,
Maybe it won't.

Maybe I'll get over you,
Maybe I still love you.

Or maybe I don't?

Dashboard Confessionals Soundplug: What Goes Around Comes Around.

2007-02-27T17:21:00.000+08:00

Justin Timberlake's What Goes Around Comes Around.

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around 
should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around

You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around 
(should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)

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Very nice song, kinda fits my mood, but I dislike the interlude part tho, kinda hurting. =) enjoy~!

A Reply To A Tag.

2007-02-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS
[x] Talked back to a teacher. *made her cry actually, that she left never wanting to teach us again*
[x] Been kicked out of class.
[ ] Worn pajamas to school.
[ ] Had your tooth fall out at school.
[x] Gotten lost in your school.
[x] Broken the dress code in school.
[x] Completely failed a test.
[x] Left class without asking.
[x] Missed a whole week of school.
[ ] Thrown up in school.
[x] Been beat up at school. *if you mean beat up somebody, then yes!*

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS
[x] Argue with your parents a lot.
[ ] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your sister(s) a lot.
[x] Have your own room.
[ ] Do your own laundry
[x] Cook dinner once in a while.
[x] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[x] Wear pyjamas when you are not going anywhere.
[x] You sleep in very long.
[ ] All you do is watch television.
[ ] Your parents are divorced.
[ ] your family makes you cry alot.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.
[ ] You can't stand being with yourparents

FRIEND CONFESSIONS
[x] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.
[x] You are jealous of one or more of your friends.
[ ] You have known a friend your whole life.
[ ] Your friends are all taller than you.
[ ] You have been ditched by a friend.
[x] You have memorized a friends phone number.
[x] You have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.
[ ] You have been to all of your friends houses.
[x]you love most of your friends.

HABIT CONFESSIONS
[x] You bite your nails.
[ ] You have an odd obsession with knives.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed.
[x] You cannot sleep with the door open.
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.
[ ] You write stories about mad cannibalistic serial killers
[x] You are good at telling lies *DEFINETLY*

LOVE CONFESSIONS
[x]You currently like someone. *love that person, actually, but it's sad.*
[ ] You want to kill one of your exes.
[x]You can stay commited for an unusually long time.
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gfeasily.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called youself-centered before.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
[ ] You hate George Bush.
[x] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.*durh!*
[x] Gay marriage is fine by you. *if u mean gay as in lesbian, then yeah! they shud have 3some marriages too*
[ ] Boys make better friends than girls do.
[x] The beach is an excellent place for a date.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[ ] Needles aren't so horrible.
[ ] Human flesh tastes like fine aged veal
[ ]You have plenty of secrets. *nah, im an open book*

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
[x] Fallen up the stairs.
[ ] Someone has tied your shoelaces together.
[ ] Had a nail fall off.
[ ] Captured, Manipulated, or Destroyed a soul by Ars Falcis
[ ] Had surgery
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[ ] Killed someone.
[ ] Someone has called you a tease.
[ ] You have been to Europe.
[x] You have worn something inside outfor a whole day

3 PEOPLE TO TAG
nah, too emo to think or tag anyone.

I need cash!

2007-02-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

I've been trying to get a laptop for ages now! My desktop is SO troublesome and SO outdated already! Like, my USB doesnt work all of a sudden..damn sad larh.

So anyway, I've been saving up for a laptop, and I've already seen all the specs out there and I carefully selected a few custom mods to the build.
Once I get my laptop, I'd be photoshopping like M to the A to the D!

These are the specs, any comments appreciated! :-

Intel(R) Core(TM)2 Duo Processor T7200 2GHz, 4MB Cache, 667 MHz FSB
Genuine Windows Vista(TM) Home Premium 32 bit (English)
1 ExpressCard Slot, (DOES NOT SUPPORT PCMCIA CARDS)
Artic Silver with Alpine White accents on a black base
Internal 87 Keys Keyboard (English)
Integrated Stereo Sound with Subwoofer
90W Primary AC Adapter (110V/220V)
Integrated 10/100 Fast Ethernet Intel(R) 945 Chipset Family
17" UltraSharp(TM) Wide Screen XGA+ TFT Display: 1440x900
2048MB (2 X 1024MB) 667MHz DDR2 SDRAM
200GB SATA 4200RPM Hard Drive
Internal 8X DVD+/-RW Combination Drive with dual layer write capabilities
Intel(R) PRO/Wireless 3945 Dual Band 802.11a/g 54Mbps Wireless Mini Card
256MB NVIDIA(R) GeForce(R) Go 7900 GS
6-Cell 53Whr Lithium Ion Primary Battery

RM7070.00!!

Lets check the piggy bank,

RM11.06

Sad.

New place, new beginning.

2007-02-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

I got this new place to play in.
Its a church in Bandar Puteri, Klang.
Do come down if your in that area kay?
The place is called Grace Bandar Puteri.
Yippee!
Cizo!

Never try.

2007-02-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my whole life, I've come to realise that,

I have no best friend.

WTH?

I mean seriously, name 1 guy/girl who,

a) Came to my house frequently in the last 1 month, or 1 week. Heck, all of my friends don't even know where I live!

b) Called me for a gig.

c) Called me out!

d) Hit on the same girl as me, you know, woo the same girl.

e) Never backbited/gossiped about me, wheter backstabbing, or frontstabbing.
- Never heard of frontstabbing? I coined this term after my previous "best-friend" cheated on me, and told me. Irony? I beg to differ.

g) Stood up for me in times of need or trouble.

The list can go on actually, but I'm too disgusted to even think.

Ta'raa!