Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Recollections.
Well, today I decided to pay my SAM lecturers a little visit. Kinda akward seing the people I used to see EVERYDAY last year. They all looked so much different! It was odd seing my Accounts lect. looking so pale and thin, while my English lect. apparently seemed more jovial than usual (Mr.Kevin did you suck the life out of Mrs.Ngam?? ahahha). Well my Economics teacher, otherwise known as my mentor, was blur when she saw me, as she couldn't recognize me!! Weird, it was only awhile back that I completed SAM, and they already forgot me! Imagine that!! I even met SianYee!! She looked SO different! LOL! EH I NO MORE TAYLORS EDY WHY YOUR LECTURER SCOLD ME LAA~~! Sad Sad! No manners one this people. My life got insurance laa! Lol. And btw, whts with your classmate la? Damn weird sia the guy!
It was a bittersweet moment truly. Never had I felt so much regret and relief in finishing SAM.
So anyway, things are turning up much better in life. I met some really cool dudes(-ettes) in my current course. Its really smooth flowing now, but I'm still haunted by tonnes of assignments.
A bit off topic here, a poem that came across my mind -
Looking away from you,
Is the hardest possible thing I could do,
Rest assured I'll never leave you,
As I love you, and I still do.
Haix, emo again =X
It was a bittersweet moment truly. Never had I felt so much regret and relief in finishing SAM.
So anyway, things are turning up much better in life. I met some really cool dudes(-ettes) in my current course. Its really smooth flowing now, but I'm still haunted by tonnes of assignments.
A bit off topic here, a poem that came across my mind -
Looking away from you,
Is the hardest possible thing I could do,
Rest assured I'll never leave you,
As I love you, and I still do.
Haix, emo again =X
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7:26 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Back from Bedlam.
It's been REALLY long ago since my last post. I've been really going through a roller coaster ride in life, and I am still on the ride btw. I'm having second thoughts about my life plan and all. So anyway, I miss life on the easy lane. I miss blogging, but I had a certain moment in time that I realized that there is NO benefits to blogging, other than letting out feelings, which I'm about to do now.
Well yeah, when you've been down under(Not Australia, lol.), you will get accustomed to a feeling that is really EMO. Everyday you will think about the same crap, the "I wish" thoughts and dreams. You do know what I mean right?
Imagine you've really grown on this person, and you wanna spend ALL your time with her, as shes REALLY nice to you, and yeah, you think you have the chance, but hey! She's nice to EVERYONE. Bummer! Your not SPECIAL anymore, or heck, you never were. Everyone else knows so much more than you know about her, and it's not like they asked and crap, but they were told. You do everything you can to show your existence, but does it really matter? Does it?
You then notice shes way much closer to everyone else, and you are left alone in the rain. In that, you feel even more down, and yes, the feelings back again, but now multiplied.
I've experienced this feeling oh so many times that I'm preety much sick and tired of it. Love ain't what we persume it is, neighter is it heavenly. It's just a ball of chaos heading your way in the awkwardest possible moment. Life sucks, and guess what? I'm on the fast lane of life, and I'm headed straight into the jaws of reality, which is after the RM1.50 toll. Hahha.
So anyway, architecture is ALOT of work, yeah NellyG, it is, I agree! Well last week we visited the National Musuem on an assesment basis, and this Friday it would be off to Malacca, to the Mini Malaysia and Mini Asean for their rich cultural diversities.
Anyway for the people who was following my short stories on the previous posts, I've gotta say sorry as I did not continue it, as that was just a past time when I had nothing to do, but now I do and I've no time. But rest assured I will continue it! =)
So thanks people who has been visiting this blog, I bid hello to the newcomers and please enjoy your stay, and please do come again! And for the reggies, I am back.
Well yeah, when you've been down under(Not Australia, lol.), you will get accustomed to a feeling that is really EMO. Everyday you will think about the same crap, the "I wish" thoughts and dreams. You do know what I mean right?
Imagine you've really grown on this person, and you wanna spend ALL your time with her, as shes REALLY nice to you, and yeah, you think you have the chance, but hey! She's nice to EVERYONE. Bummer! Your not SPECIAL anymore, or heck, you never were. Everyone else knows so much more than you know about her, and it's not like they asked and crap, but they were told. You do everything you can to show your existence, but does it really matter? Does it?
You then notice shes way much closer to everyone else, and you are left alone in the rain. In that, you feel even more down, and yes, the feelings back again, but now multiplied.
I've experienced this feeling oh so many times that I'm preety much sick and tired of it. Love ain't what we persume it is, neighter is it heavenly. It's just a ball of chaos heading your way in the awkwardest possible moment. Life sucks, and guess what? I'm on the fast lane of life, and I'm headed straight into the jaws of reality, which is after the RM1.50 toll. Hahha.
So anyway, architecture is ALOT of work, yeah NellyG, it is, I agree! Well last week we visited the National Musuem on an assesment basis, and this Friday it would be off to Malacca, to the Mini Malaysia and Mini Asean for their rich cultural diversities.
Anyway for the people who was following my short stories on the previous posts, I've gotta say sorry as I did not continue it, as that was just a past time when I had nothing to do, but now I do and I've no time. But rest assured I will continue it! =)
So thanks people who has been visiting this blog, I bid hello to the newcomers and please enjoy your stay, and please do come again! And for the reggies, I am back.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:54 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Saturday, January 13, 2007
God!
WTH is wrong with the connection la? I mean like, I was trying to get into blogger for several days now but to no avail!!
Well anyway, been really busy with my education and all, its been a rather hectic week. My legs are killing me! Im so tired I could sleep and not get up forever!
Its actually because on Thursday, the SABD decided to have a walk around KL, and by god, we had a LONG walk! We had to take numerous pics of architectorial marvels around KL, like the Sultan Abdul Samad Building and the National Mosque. It was amazingly far, on foot that is.
Well if that wasn't enough, the very next day we had Team Building, where one of the most absurd activities was to carry another person through a hula hoop hanging over our heads. It was dangerous and added a huge load of fatigue. I'm soooo tired!
Btw, if I don't update this blog often, it's 'cuz I'm really busy!
Well anyway, been really busy with my education and all, its been a rather hectic week. My legs are killing me! Im so tired I could sleep and not get up forever!
Its actually because on Thursday, the SABD decided to have a walk around KL, and by god, we had a LONG walk! We had to take numerous pics of architectorial marvels around KL, like the Sultan Abdul Samad Building and the National Mosque. It was amazingly far, on foot that is.
Well if that wasn't enough, the very next day we had Team Building, where one of the most absurd activities was to carry another person through a hula hoop hanging over our heads. It was dangerous and added a huge load of fatigue. I'm soooo tired!
Btw, if I don't update this blog often, it's 'cuz I'm really busy!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:36 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Once upon a time.
I remember long time back, I was very much insecure with my self. I never had self-confidence, and I still have that problem, lesser tho. So anyway, I was extremely in awe of this one girl. She was everything a guy from a all-boys school like me hoped to see in a tu. She was a 17 out of 10 (ahaha, I can see you smiling as your reading this, whoever the person I'm aiming this post at). A true definition of the term vogue; she was smart, sexy, and popular. I loved everything about her.
I never had the guts, to even walk by her, and even if I had to, I'd pull my cap way down till it closes my eyes, and I'll walk face down (i.e. walk of shame). I was too ashamed to even be seen by her. I remember wearing big shirts and I always wore a cap to make sure I was unrecognizable; by her or anyone else. I was invisible to her. There was zero contact towards her from me. The only memorable contact was when I passed an attendance sheet to her, but she barely even looked at my hand.
Life was sad, and was empty. I knew deep down, I'd never be able to talk to her, nor will she ever know me. I was a mere shadow. I always watched her as she got into her ride after classes. I was like an unseen bodyguard. I just wanted her to be safe, and once she's safe inside her ride, I'd walk back to the bus stand. Even though I played truant to some of my classes, I'd make sure I get there by 9-ish to see her off. I can still smell her faint perfume lingering around my nostrills once as she walked by me; and to date I'd never forget the smell. DKNY.
Time got the best of us, and it slipped away between my fingers. It was the last day I'd ever set foot for classes; and it's also the last time I'd ever see her. I walked down the stairs, waited near a small mamak stall, and watched her do her walk of glory for the last and final time. The memory of that day, is very much vivid. She was dressed in a maroon top, coupled with a black pants, she looked amazing. As she got up her ride, I bid her goodbye, but she never did see it.
I was pathetic; and I lost everything. I'd never see her again.
Or so I thought.
I'm glad I made Taylors College my choice, as I did see her again. This time, I told myself. I got to be more confident, and boost my self-esteem. I said hello, and turns out, it was the best word I'd said all my life.
I'm not gonna reveal who this person is, and neighter am I gonna give more details about her. All I can say is that, I never expected to be this close to you, or maybe not that close, but heck, YOU KNOW ME!
and you at least know my name. I'm glad I made the choice to say that very word.
I never had the guts, to even walk by her, and even if I had to, I'd pull my cap way down till it closes my eyes, and I'll walk face down (i.e. walk of shame). I was too ashamed to even be seen by her. I remember wearing big shirts and I always wore a cap to make sure I was unrecognizable; by her or anyone else. I was invisible to her. There was zero contact towards her from me. The only memorable contact was when I passed an attendance sheet to her, but she barely even looked at my hand.
Life was sad, and was empty. I knew deep down, I'd never be able to talk to her, nor will she ever know me. I was a mere shadow. I always watched her as she got into her ride after classes. I was like an unseen bodyguard. I just wanted her to be safe, and once she's safe inside her ride, I'd walk back to the bus stand. Even though I played truant to some of my classes, I'd make sure I get there by 9-ish to see her off. I can still smell her faint perfume lingering around my nostrills once as she walked by me; and to date I'd never forget the smell. DKNY.
Time got the best of us, and it slipped away between my fingers. It was the last day I'd ever set foot for classes; and it's also the last time I'd ever see her. I walked down the stairs, waited near a small mamak stall, and watched her do her walk of glory for the last and final time. The memory of that day, is very much vivid. She was dressed in a maroon top, coupled with a black pants, she looked amazing. As she got up her ride, I bid her goodbye, but she never did see it.
I was pathetic; and I lost everything. I'd never see her again.
Or so I thought.
I'm glad I made Taylors College my choice, as I did see her again. This time, I told myself. I got to be more confident, and boost my self-esteem. I said hello, and turns out, it was the best word I'd said all my life.
I'm not gonna reveal who this person is, and neighter am I gonna give more details about her. All I can say is that, I never expected to be this close to you, or maybe not that close, but heck, YOU KNOW ME!
and you at least know my name. I'm glad I made the choice to say that very word.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:03 PM
3 people in the crowd heard my words
3 people in the crowd heard my words
Monday, January 01, 2007
Absence.
Hidey ho! Ive been really busy with life that I've forgot to update my blog ever so frequently. It's actually because my SAM is over and I've to make a choice on my future education path. I've already made up my mind, and it's architecture. Yeah, I know its kinda off-way out of my first choice, which was indeed Law. It's decision I sometimes wonder the clarity of it. What if it's a wrong move? What if I don't like it somehwere along the way? What if this? What if that?
I'm so lost.
Anyhoo, during the last Boxing Day, my family and I, including my relatives, headed up to Penang for a vacation. It was alright la, except for the service apartments we booked. It was a nightmare!
I've really lost my mood to blog these days. I'm not even sure I'd continue blogging. Well, I'll end it here then. Ta'raa!
I'm so lost.
Anyhoo, during the last Boxing Day, my family and I, including my relatives, headed up to Penang for a vacation. It was alright la, except for the service apartments we booked. It was a nightmare!
I've really lost my mood to blog these days. I'm not even sure I'd continue blogging. Well, I'll end it here then. Ta'raa!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 11:35 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
