Sunday, February 17, 2008
Smile.
ArgH! I'm on my bed, tired, weak, running nose, oh yes, the whole cocktail.
But somehow, through this thick forest of sickness, I had time to realise certain aspects of my life.
I'm addicted, and yes, I'm hooked.
For some reason even I can't figure out, I seem to go all out, to do things I wouldn't normally do even for myself, like driving all the way up to K.L, and drive the all the way back to Shah Alam, and asking for something that someone wanted in every single shop. I just wouldn't do it for myself, neighter for my parents for that matter.
The thing is, I'm addicted to her smile. Everytime I see her, be it for a moment, I would give anything to look into her eyes, just to see her smile, and theres where my lame jokes comes to play =P
Yeah, I know, I might be lame, but at least I'm trying. Deep down in me, I know theres a strong will, a will that would be sufficient to keep her happy, through thick or thin. I know I would keep her happy, if only she knew. Or maybe she does? =P
It's been long now, if I put into consideration the times I wish I had said something, it would be close to 5 years now. There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think of her/us and what could have been if I could only open my mouth. But I just can't! The very thought of losing her, and what I have, what we have together, as friends, just pulls my guts inside out.
Maybe I'm a chicken, maybe I'm the very same guy from the picture in the below post. All these just gives me a reality check, a yank, back down to earth.
Just give me a sign, just tell me. I wish you would.
And I would give you the best years of your life. I promise you.
But somehow, through this thick forest of sickness, I had time to realise certain aspects of my life.
I'm addicted, and yes, I'm hooked.
For some reason even I can't figure out, I seem to go all out, to do things I wouldn't normally do even for myself, like driving all the way up to K.L, and drive the all the way back to Shah Alam, and asking for something that someone wanted in every single shop. I just wouldn't do it for myself, neighter for my parents for that matter.
The thing is, I'm addicted to her smile. Everytime I see her, be it for a moment, I would give anything to look into her eyes, just to see her smile, and theres where my lame jokes comes to play =P
Yeah, I know, I might be lame, but at least I'm trying. Deep down in me, I know theres a strong will, a will that would be sufficient to keep her happy, through thick or thin. I know I would keep her happy, if only she knew. Or maybe she does? =P
It's been long now, if I put into consideration the times I wish I had said something, it would be close to 5 years now. There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think of her/us and what could have been if I could only open my mouth. But I just can't! The very thought of losing her, and what I have, what we have together, as friends, just pulls my guts inside out.
Maybe I'm a chicken, maybe I'm the very same guy from the picture in the below post. All these just gives me a reality check, a yank, back down to earth.
Just give me a sign, just tell me. I wish you would.
And I would give you the best years of your life. I promise you.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:12 PM
2 people in the crowd heard my words
2 people in the crowd heard my words
